I was a little bit busy this morning. I did the laundry and other little things around my place. Today was a nice day outside so I took a bike ride. It seemed desolate with not many people out and about. Socially, not too exciting. Well, another Christmas has come and gone. It didn't feel much like Christmas this time, I think.

[3rd rock]

I feel depressed about the possibility that I could have cancer. After my recent MRI has revealed that it's worsening, I'm still waiting on a referral to the neurologist.

First of all, for 3rd Rock, I'm very sorry to hear about what's happening to you. I'm hoping the very best for you. For me, I have to look into something like that for myself next month.

Been pretty busy today but feeling a bit weird and depressed. Like I'm missing out on something good and having things coming up that are dreadful. The weather here is very clear (sunny) and cooler. For some strange reason it seems like very clear and cold days make me feel depressed. I tend to feel better if it was mostly cloudy or some moisture with it. I wouldn't like it to be like that all of time, but I like to have variety with weather.

Also I have not received any emails in the last three days. I wonder if there's something up with that. That's unusual. Especially when I had send a photo to my email and never received it.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m kinda down today. Basically I am just thrown off schedule. Plus I am getting a bit tired of group and I’ve only been there 9 times. I’d honestly rather go back to work then do groups.

[Deilla]

I feel really bad tonight.

[3rd rock]

It seems all I can think about is the possibility that the lesions in my brain could be cancer. I read that the average lifespan for someone diagnosed with brain cancer is something like fourteen years after diagnosis. I'm really unable to focus and I feel like nothing is worth anything right now. It's hard to explain.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling somewhat down today. I am experiencing a post Christmas let down and the pandemic and the state of the country is disheartening.

Woke up feeling depressed from yesterday. Late yesterday afternoon and into the night, I felt like I was on a roll for constant little things going wrong. I hope today will be better. At least this is going to be another abbreviated work week for me. I'll be so sad when it's all over.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m glad my family is here, but I’m just hanging in bed because they are being loud and I am pretty depressed and not feeling the best. I need to eat something though. That will help a lot.

[Deilla]

I feel stressed this afternoon.

Not much of a day today. Went for a fairly long bike ride. That was the only real highlight of the day. Feeling depressed that I have to go to work tomorrow.

[Rose76]

I'm kind of depressed. I don't feel sad or lonely. I just have been real content to do nothing.

Post-Christmas is always kind of a letdown for me. I'll enjoy the twinkly decorations for another week. My tree came out very nice.

Normally, I light candles in the evening. This evening I haven't done that. It's like I've lost interest in the little things that normally bring me peace.

I'm in front of the TV too much. Been in the same pajamas day and night for 2 days.

When something seems too good to be true... it probably isn’t.

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'll enjoy the twinkly decorations for another week. My tree came out very nice.

Sorry, you are feeling lonely. Decorations help me too, especially around holidays and twinkly ones. Thank you for sharing that.

I’ve also been feeling lonely, lounging with a candle lit and in comfy clothes. I thought I had settled myself for the work week, then poof... I remember how depressed I am.

[Deilla]

I am doing Okay today. I have a few chores to deal with, but mainly I will relax.

[TishaBuv]

Down. I must suck since others think I do. I realize that is true as they have treated me as though I must suck.

[Breaking Dawn]

@TishaBuv, if "they" really feel that way, that is so weird to me, because when I see your name it brightens my day.

[TishaBuv]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

@TishaBuv, if "they" really feel that way, that is so weird to me, because when I see your name it brightens my day.

You brighten mine too. That was sweet.

[3rd rock]

Today and Friday are stat holidays, so I have only three more work days to go until my vacation begins. I've got almost all of January off, and I intend to use that time to focus on personal and professional goals.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

Down. I must suck since others think I do. I realize that is true as they have treated me as though I must suck.

I know what it is to think like that. Here's how I neutralize that thinking - that THEY must know who is worth what:

There's plenty of video showing crowds cheering Adolph Hitler . . . and he had friends and a woman who loved him. So he must have been a good guy - right?

Sometimes the person getting boo'd is better than the booers. History is chock-full of examples of THEM being wrong.

[Rose76]

I started feeling a lot better today. I know I'll feel even better tomorrow.

Managed to shower and put on fresh pajamas.

I woke up this morning dreading to go to work. It turned out better than I thought it would. I was feeling pretty good emotionally about three hours after starting there. I felt alright at the end of the work time. After that, it seemed like there were little things going wrong, one after another. Weird how things go well and then comes a time when it goes wrong.

[Deilla]

I feel tired, sad and stressed.

Right now it's a start of another four-day weekend just like I had last week. I'm already feeling depressed about this coming weekend that will come to an end. And then it will be a while before there's time off again. Also I think about the medical issue that I will try to get to the bottom of by next week.

A couple of things happened today that was a bit uplifting, though. At work the maintenance man noticed an attachment to a door handle was missing. On Tuesday there was a huge copier that came and that must have taken that accessory off. The maintenance man was a bit upset about it. But a few minutes later, I was able to find it and put it back on the door handle. So that was a relief.

And the Jacuzzi at where I live just opened back up. It's slightly different now with some restrictions that go with it. But it's nice to have it back after a few weeks of having it shut down.

[Deilla]

I feel tired and stressed today. I have a lot to do.