[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by VerMOZZica

I`ve been feeling really down and irritable. I haven`t been on the Rexulti that was prescribed for me because it wasn`t approved for some time now. I don`t think I would go back on it now because the withdrawals were very unpleasant and I don`t want to go through that again. My doc also had prescribed a new med to see if it would help my depression but I had to stop taking it because of the side effects. So here I am stuck in a state of depression . But hey it`s not like the meds were doing much. I guess I just needed a little room to vent .Thanks for reading and hugs to all that want them.

I hope you feel better soon, @VerMOZZica.

[Breaking Dawn]

I had some difficult moments this morning, but I think I'll be back on track in a little while. And setbacks are expected now & then, so I shouldn't let it discourage me. I hope to fulfill 2 or 3 goals today that are really important.

[Mountaindewed]

I was told that if you are working from home and your sitting by a window all the time your SAD might not be as bad as it usually is. Which makes sense. I’ve been sitting by the windows all winter and my depression hasn’t been terrible. If I were at work I’d be working in a backroom with no windows.

Edit: the sun has been very powerful for 30 minutes or so these last few days and I get a sudden rush and then when it goes down my mood goes with it and the change is kinda drastic. It’s a bit strange.

[Rose76]

Depressed again today. Just apathetic and wanting to either sleep or read or watch videos.

I've got to get out of this hole. My kitchen is strewn with dirty dishes. So I just took an additional dose of amitriptyline. I remember doing that for a few days last month and that it helped.

[88Butterfly88]

Today was a long depressing day. Ugh!

I haven't felt that well emotionally today. I had been doing alright for a while, but now I feel very depressed. Just in the last 24 hours I've had "run ins" with two people. One being my friend, whom I just told to not call me anymore because we had an argument last night. And he hung up on me. And today with another worker. Bear in mind that I don't have much going for me socially and it's very desolate at my job. It seems like I can't afford to have disagreements with anyone around me.

[hvert]

I had a great day Tuesday and then my week dropped off a cliff. I hope today is better.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling stressed out and sad this morning.

[Yzen]

Feeling lost today. I need to find a new way.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling very depressed today. Cold inside and full of dread. Not able to do anything but curl up in a little ball. I wish my NP worked on Fridays. It’s going to be a long weekend.

[Mountaindewed]

I had the same “sun shining right in my face=powerful euphoria” again today. Now my mood has dipped slightly but it’s not terrible and I’m still in an ok mood.

Very slow day, as always. Today I've been overhearing talk about what's going to happen in the near future. It seems like I'm hearing all kinds of different things. Today I heard that the place could come to an end by June. But no one knows. After all, companies will never come right out and say a specific day that we'd have to leave. Instead they would tell you to leave at the last minute. I was overhearing from the Facility Manager talking to the security guards about this; and presently he's looking for another job. I sure will miss him when he leaves. I really like him a lot.

I had a talk with the woman that I had a little "run in" with yesterday. There were no hard feelings at all between us. We had a pretty nice talk, but she's not someone whom I would want to "pal" around with.

I got home and now it's now it's the weekend. I felt depressed when I got home. What I have going for me now is working at a job that's desolate and have lost the only friend I had. At my job, I want to stick it out until the bitter end (which should not be that far away) since I would receive more in benefits.

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you, @will19, for expressing this! I experienced this myself. My job was my family. Fortunately, I am still in touch with three of my coworkers. I hope things work out for you in the best way.

[Deilla]

I feel a little sad today. But I think it's because it's late and I am getting tired. I want something fun to do before I go back to bed.

[Sunflower123]

I’m really depressed again today. It’s very debilitating and painful. I hope it eases up soon.

[Mountaindewed]

Same as usual sun thing. Honestly tonight I feel more down then I have been feeling. I’m tired. I didn’t sleep great last night and I took my med early.

[Breaking Dawn]

Mostly ups this morning.

Kind of busy today but not too exciting. Just made my spaghetti sauce and did some odds and ends this morning. Went for a bike ride and got into an accident. I "T-Boned" a car on my bike. It all happened so fast. The driver had just crossed the road I was riding on (which was not expected at that spot) and never saw me. I didn't see him either until I hit him. I fell off and got some scrapes and bruises. Parts of me are hurting a little bit but it seemed like a big miracle that I'm not nearly worse off than I should have been with that kind of accident. I'll be alright.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by will19

Kind of busy today but not too exciting. Just made my spaghetti sauce and did some odds and ends this morning. Went for a bike ride and got into an accident. I "T-Boned" a car on my bike. It all happened so fast. The driver had just crossed the road I was riding on (which was not expected at that spot) and never saw me. I didn't see him either until I hit him. I fell off and got some scrapes and bruises. Parts of me are hurting a little bit but it seemed like a big miracle that I'm not nearly worse off than I should have been with that kind of accident. I'll be alright.

Dear @will19, thank goodness you're ok!! That sounds like you have a guardian angel! I hope your scrapes & bruises heal right away.

[jrae]

been in one h**l of a hole for many weeks now. maybe it just doesn't matter anymore. this struggle has broken me, in SO many ways. don't even know why i'm typing / posting this.....

[buddha1too]

Originally Posted by jrae

[COLOR="Navy"don't even know why i'm typing / posting this..... [/COLOR]

Because we're here to relate - most of us have been right where you are now. Hang in there, jrae. Keep posting.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m really depressed again today. It’s very debilitating and painful. I hope it eases up soon.

+1. It's always life-draining.

I'm taking the day off today from work. I called in sick very early this morning. I didn't sleep well because of pains from the accident yesterday. I wasn't up for going to work today. I felt guilty for not going in. There was supposed to be a Skype meeting within my team this morning, but the manager put it off because I was not going to be at work. I had asked if I could participate by phone, since I don't have Skype. Well, anyways, I wasn't crazy about the meeting but it should be re-scheduled.

Since I didn't sleep well, I was feeling very depressed, anxious, and angry about the accident in the middle of the night. It was like, "why did it have to happen?".

Feeling tired this morning but the pains seem to be subsiding. I think that they will all go away, but it will take some time. Very nice day outside as it's totally clear and in the low 70s. I went to a couple of stores to pick up a few things that I didn't get over the weekend.

[Deilla]

My cats are stressing me out today. They're not eating their wet food. My little cat won't take her meds. She knocked a good coffee cup on the floor this morning. It shattered. They're just driving me crazy. I need a break from them. Hopefully, they sleep soon.

[Mountaindewed]

My depression hasn’t been too bad today. My last therapy session is tomorrow and I’ve been kinda like “whatever” all day. I actually thought my mom was on the phone with the new one when usually I’d assume it was the other one. It turned out to be the lawyer for the house. But I think I may be feeling my afternoon euphoria. I didn’t feel it yesterday.

I did take Tylenol 1.5 hours ago. And a Pepcid 30 minutes ago. So I’m not feeling much pain. Could be why I’m in a good mood right now.