[TryingToCope]

I am so tired of all the ups and downs. I don't feel I have the energy to keep going. I have an appointment with t this morning, and I don't even feel like going there. My kids and job are all that are keeping me going right now. My husband seems to be trying his hardest to make me feel worse. For a few days, he was actually nice. I got my hopes up again that things were going to change. Why do I do that to myself? I know his treating me nice never lasts, but yet every time he does I get my hopes up. He doesn't want me seeing t or taking my meds. I got a job so I could pay for therapy for my daughter and myself and get my meds. Now he's doing all he can to make sure I don't have money. I haven't been able to take my meds the way I should for a few months now. Sorry for all the complaining.

[Perna]

That's sad the way your husband doesn't help you by supporting your efforts to get better.

{{{TryingToCope}}}

[stefano]

Your idiot husband is being part of the problem!
He wants to prevent you from going to T and taking meds... Does he want to kill you? If the problems involve your daughter too he is twice as guilty!
I realize how hard it is to be assertive when you are depressed, but you really should make things clear with him. Depression is already a nasty illness, with no need for accomplices.

The best of luck!

[Doh2007]

That's such a hard place to be. Know that we love and support you and you can always come here for a hug.

[TryingToCope]

Thank you all for replying.
Stefano, I have been seeing t for almost 2 years now. It has taken a while, but I have started to take a few steps in gaining some control in my life. He doesn't like that with the help of the meds and therapy, that this is happening. He doesn't like not having total control of me, and like t pointed out to me, he is trying his best to get the little control I have gained, back.
Hugs to all of you.