After depressive episodes

Hey

I had depressive episodes since I was seven or eight years old.
They all differed in severity and duration but I noticed around the age of 16 that depression took something from me over and over again.
Just small parts but I think after being not depressed for nearly one year now that it has taken almost all of it.

I would describe it as interest in live. Or motivation. Or passion for just anything at all.
Everything just doesn't seem to absorb me.
I tried drawing again and started to workout but the whole wow effect doesn't come.
All I do just seems like nothing or feels like nothing.

I worry that due to the amount of depressive episodes during my childhood and teenage years that I lost the ability to really feel as much excitement or happiness as other people.

Is it possible that I am just expecting more of everything but in reality people are not actually passionate in regards to feeling passionte than more of acting passionate?
Or is my brain broken or damaged?

Dear Whereto52,

I am so sorry you are in that situation. It is really heartbreaking! Do you think that perhaps you are feeling this way because you are in another bout of depression or because you have relapsed? I read somewhere that some depressions improve but do not fully resolve so that sufferers remain in a kind of state you describe. Perhaps I am wrong. I am not a doctor or medical professional and the article I read, I read a long time ago. You deserve a full recovery from depression! Wish I knew how to help.

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

I read a lot of similiar articles too.
Would be scary if that would actually be the case for me.
I don't believe that the depressions are back or are setting on. The usual warning signs are missing.
But I will have an eye on that

And thx for the help

That definitely sounds like a question to ask a medical provider rather then an online forum.

Also comparing yourself to other people is usually not a recipe for success.

Now if you compare yourself to yourself and say I used to be more passionate, that may be a sign of depression, but you said you have not been depressed for a year.

Hi Whereto52, thanks for sharing here. I'm glad you posted. Please feel free to share more. Hugs and respect.