Major Depression

I have been so depressed, No energy to do anything. Even getting a shower takes me to convince myself to do it. I had apt with my psy, only to find out that he quit, and now a PA works in his place and she stopped my meds, kept asking me if i drank, and i only have a glass of wine maybe once in a blue moon. She was also judgmental about my giving up my daughter when she was 10 months old. She said if i didn't use my nicotine only vape, I could afford other things. I smoked cigs for almost 40 years, and have done this vape for 2 years, even my primary Dr has been inpressed.. Now my mental Dr was replaced, my regular nurse, the office staff, and even my therapist, who I have yet to meet, along with cansiling my medication without even how to do that. Then she wants to see me back in a month, I have so much trouble functing now, I can, believe i will be able to function after a month. My anger, disapointment, dispare, depression, loss of wanting to do anything, and total disinchantment with that office is major. I don't know if i have the strength to get through.

You can get through. You are strong even if you don't feel it. You have every right to be angry and everything else. What they have done is just wrong.

Do you have to use them or is there somewhere else you can see about getting into? Would your PCP be willing to get you back on your meds? I know some PCPs stay away from them but some are willing especially if it's something you were already taking.

Trust and believe I understand how hard it is to do anything when you are dealing with major depression. It makes you just want to curl into a ball and give up. EVERYTHING is a monumental task you have to work yourself up to.

I have literally not eaten for up to three days because I honestly just couldn't find the energy or wherewithal to cook something. It was all I could do to drag myself to the bathroom and crawl back in bed. Part of the time I slept on the bathroom floor so I didn't have to actually walk to it. Then I said EFF this and I got mad! I will not let this beat me! I have not survived everything in my life to just quit and let this win! Anger can be a hell of a motivator. Find what works for you and use it to get help. Do not give up you are stronger than it is.

I completely understand how you feel. I feel like this all the time. You are not alone.

Hey there. I am writing this because I feel this so much right now.


I hope you are doing ok.

My mood has turned rather dark. Today, I loved seeing all those clouds with some rain because it kind of made me mad to see more sunlight I just hated seeing it. What I loved more was not seeing this brother of mine come back after only so many hours. I don't think he should for the whole weekend. I think he should stay away from the bad vibe of a place and my depression. That's what I think.

So Sorry things are being hard! Please do not give up! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about Hoping that you are doing Ok. Is it possible for you to see another doctor? From what you wrote it seems like you don't particularly like your current one. Just a thought perhaps. i Hope things will improve soon for everyone really. Please do keep us updated if you want to and So Sorry that i'm replying late. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @katydid777, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

How long ago did you give up your daughter

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Having several problems happen at once just before the weekend put me in a very sour bitter mood.

If I understood your post, your psychiatrist was replaced by a PA who stopped the meds the psychiatrist ordered for you. That is outrageous! I hate to sound discouraging, but this PA sounds like someone who is not going to be a good healthcare provider for you. No wonder you feel so low! Any chance you could get reassigned to another provider? I hardly think you could do worse with just about anyone else.

I take it that the decision about your daughter happened decades ago. The PA is criticizing that now? You might want to consider reporting this person to some responsible party. I think there may be a serious ethics problem here.

If you've given up a 40 year smoking habit to vape, I congratulate you. You mention another MD. If you have access to another MD, you might tell the doctor what you've told us in your opening post. This PA sounds abusive. So she's suggesting you have an alcohol use disorder - based on nothing? It's hard to trust someone who shows you that much disrespect.

Unfortunately, not everyone who has the credentials to be in healthcare actually should be there. I would advise you to keep a written record of whatever this PA says that you find troubling.

Maybe I'm over-reacting. Maybe your relationship with this PA is salvageable. Start a little journal of your encounters with her. I'm sorry you lost access to the psychiatrist you were previously seeing. What you've described would be hurtful to most clients of psych services, IMO . . . and depressing. I hope you can somehow get the care and support you have a right to receive.

I thought of something else. This new PA that was assigned to you probably works under the supervision of a psychiatrist. (That can vary state to state.) She would have to see that pdoc from time to time for "treatment team meetings," where she would discuss her clients - like you - and her decisions about your care. Ask to be told the name of this psychiatrist. You have a right to that information. Then know you have the right to submit a letter to this doctor, outlining that you have concerns about this PA. You needn't go into much detail. You could request an interview to express your discomfort about this PA.

The supervising psychiatrist will likely lean toward defending the PA. But I don't think you'll be totally dismissed. You might, at least, get your meds reinstated. I've actually made appeals like this to medical supervisors and gotten satisfactory responses.

There is, generally, always someone higher up that you can appeal to. The trick is to remain very calm. Keep what you say clear and simple. And refuse to be brushed off. This PA sounds like a bully who is testing you.