[anna342]

My mind is.

There is so much stuff that is buzzing around, I feel it and am paralysed thinking about it, sit crying unable to do anything. Then I'll get myself together eventually and try and write down what is bothering me. All the thoughts that I know are buzzing around. But I can't.

It's like my mind is so full of things I know need to be addressed and things making me unhappy. I can't get hold of them. I feel so full up of emotional stuff.

It's like I have no support IRL right now. I spoke to my one contact in the community team saying I kinda needed to speak with him quite soon and it was important. But he's too busy, so I cannot see him until next week.

I'm meant to be being closely monitered, or so I was told. So much for that.

I know I have people here to chat to, but I still need someone IRL who knows and understands me. Who can give advice knowing my true situation from a professional angle.

I feel lost, scared and lonely.

[mrsmoggles]

i am soooooo sorry, I know that feeling when you are overwhelmed and all the thoughts are a jumble in your brain making you sink to lows you never knew were possible...likke life is drowning you, choking the very breath you take to sustain life...i hope someone IRL reaches out to you...if not you can talk here, I am here...melanie

[nowheretorun]

(((((anna)))))) take care...

[anna342]

Why is it that when I ask for help from the people who are employed to help me I get left alone to self destruct. I hate myself more than anything right now. All I can do is get off my head with dodgy and perhaps fake diazepam. I don't think anyone could depise me as much as I do. I am pointless.

[Cyran0]

anna, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Sometimes the system fails us and the only thing I've found as a solution is to turn to each other. You're not pointless, you're just hurting.

Try to hold on. Go easy on yourself.

Be safe.

Cyran0