In A Mess

I've really hesitated to write this post but I need to write it out and this seems to be the best place...

When I am me, I love my T and want to keep her safe at all costs...But...one of my alters hates my T with a passion and she has made a threat against my T (my T has been told by a friend of mine) and my alter will not allow me to talk, email and at times even think about my T or she said she would carry out the threat...The only way to keep my T safe is by me terminating the therapy, this is what the alter wants...Its breaking my heart to terminate but its the only way I know to keep T safe...Once its terminated than the threat is gone...My T doesn't want me to terminate, she wants to work with me more than ever....Tuesday I have to terminate to keep her safe and I am falling into a deep depression because of it....I don't know why I am telling everyone here this....and if anyone is upset by it I apologise....FP

P.S...I apologised to Pink thru PM for lashing out at her in one of her posts....I'm not well and it had nothing to do with Pink...it is me...............FP

FindPeace, you are not responsible for your T's safety, your T is. You should not terminate therapy. Your bully alter is not the only one in charge and you can't know what will happen in the future. It's good you/your friend told you T about the situation so she is aware of it but you cannot "protect" other people, that's their job.

Think about it logically; if you give in to your alter here, what more might she suggest and think she should have/be in charge of? Keep some of the power for yourself, don't give it/give in to your alter or you can never get out of the mess.

for hard times. I hope you feel better.