[breakdown156]

everything is getting to just be too much. i know i'm still young and have my whole life ahead of me, but i'm just so incredibly sad all the time. it's frusterating. Even when i'm laughing with my friends having a great time, a still feel that horrible twinge of pain.
i cut myself. i don't want to, it just happens. a couple nights ago i cut too deep and cut into some muscle and i thought i was going to bleed out after 5 minutes... I don't know what to do.
even when i'm surrounded by my best friends i'm still alone, i'm always alone. i'm sick of it. i feel like i'm too young to be taking medication, and i really don't want to go see a psychiatrist.

[bipolar_bear]

I am sorry you are in so much pain. I understand your feeling of being all alone. Maybe being here with others that understand will help you feel that you are not the only one who feels that way. I am glad you reached out to us and that we can provide some support to you.

BB

[silver_moon]

Hi


Glad you've found this place
I'm 19...I got put on meds last year even though I weren't too sure about them but I'd reached breaking point. I ended up coming off them because they really scared me and made me ill. My doc thinks it may be because of my age and the dosage was too high to start. (even though I'm over 18... I have a very short and slight frame so going on weight I think the dosage was too much).
If you're not sure on meds... I don't think it's a good idea if you're young either (how old are you, if you dont mind saying)... does anyone know that you harm yourself?
There's only you that can help yourself... you have to make the first step and tell someone how you feel.... maybe write a letter to a friend if you don't feel like speaking about it... ask them if they'll go with you to speak to your doc?
The guys on here will support you too

HONESTLY... talking to a councillor/therapist isn't that bad... they don't judge you, they don't tell anyone else what you've told them (they're legally not allowed).

Maybe the first step for you is to tell someone how you're feeling... either a friend or a member of your family.

Hope you find the courage it'll be worth it
molly

[nowheretorun]

hi breakdown...

i hope you'll soon feel well enough to stop cutting... have you seen the Sef Injury Forum ere at PC? they could help you in tht area more specifically...

as for the depression and lonliness.... try for now to value yourself as a good person who is worthy of good things in life...

open doors to positive experiences for yourself by determining that you are a person who matters, one who makes a difference..... whether we realize it or not, we are all examples of something.... we perpetuate our own beliefs by our own examples both within and outside ourselves...

you can begin to make the difference by thinking differently of yourself as worthy... as you surroundings as worthy... you can begin to create a new goodness in your life with this belief...

in time it will become easier as you see the pay off... it takes time tho.. keep working at it .. cause you're worth it...

take care

[breakdown156]

in response, i'm 14 years old. and yes, i have a couple of my friends in the past, i don't think they believe i stil do it though. only one person knows, other than that.

i still don't know about the whole councelor thing... I would have to have one of my parents schedule it, and frankly i don't really want them to have find out anything. are there any lighter medications that you would recommend?

and thank you. so much.