post it here- big or small

right now I am depressed because I don't have dr pepper. (actually no soda, I have to settle for juice)

[Yaowen]

Dear raging vortex,

I'm not really depressed at the moment. What you wrote about Dr. Pepper reminded me of something though. I like to have a Diet Pepsi once a week on Saturdays and always look forward to Saturdays for that reason. Recently I've had some dreams where I am at a restaurant or convenience store trying to buy a Diet Pepsi and they are all out.

I guess I'm a little bit down about not being able to go site seeing on the train. Before the pandemic I was going on every Amtrak train so that I could see the whole amazing United States of America, but now I am too scared to travel.

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

[RoxanneToto]

Not hugely depressing but... Conflicting feelings about my job - I like all my colleagues and boss, but the job is too much (even though I’ve been doing it over 5 years now). Really considering a career change at some point. The other thing is a certain other person saying things that make me feel they’re trying to make me stay where I am rather than doing something where my potential isn’t wasted so much. I know it’s not easy but the thought of staying in this place forever isn’t a nice one!

[Mountaindewed]

I had to put my favorite cat to sleep today. I guess right now I’m more in shock and angry at the situation.

Basically just everything is making me depressed right now and I just wish someone from my mental health team would reach out to me. I know I’m an unlikeable person. I just wish they could be professional about me being unlikeable instead of showing their dislike for me.

[Buffy01]

People ignore me, hurt my feelings.

My social life is in shambles, both with family and friends. I recently decided to call it quits or just cool it with the only friend I had. It was hard for me to constantly hear criticisms about myself and arguing. Also I feel like my relationship with my sister isn't that great. She's all who I contact with in my whole family. So the only friend I have and my sister are sub-standard relationships. Also I feel just like Buffy does.

the fact I have a friend in surgery and can't be with her as we're in diffrent parts of the country.

[Fuzzybear]

same old

not even going there...



I do not like talking about it.

[Fuzzybear]

The fact that ''they'' were so ''successful'' at abusing me and I could

Possible trigger:

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because they kept ramming down my throat how undeserving I am of

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any ''medical'' care.. or ANY sort of ''care''..... (''family'' and ''medics'' and others.. and i guess a part of me still believes them

why would I want to ... EDITED? I would rather

Ugh

forget it

sorry about the ''triggering'' post, please ignore me

hugs and respect to all


I do not think I'll be back to this thread (its truly nothing personal... just me and some... stuff

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I had to put my favorite cat to sleep today. I guess right now I’m more in shock and angry at the situation.

Basically just everything is making me depressed right now and I just wish someone from my mental health team would reach out to me. I know I’m an unlikeable person. I just wish they could be professional about me being unlikeable instead of showing their dislike for me.

@Mountaindewed I think you are a very likable person and a more than welcome contributor to PC. I love reading your posts and I think you have an interesting and quirky personality. Sometimes your posts are difficult to follow bc they are so regular they make me want to try to be more normal for myself. I hope your day gets better.

[Fuzzybear]

I do not wish to share....

- finding out I can't own the same doll as I had as a child as they've stopped selling it

shame, wanted it really badly actually

[johnDoen]

Probably,

Possible trigger:

every single moment of my existence, every breath I take, every thought I have and every emotion I feel

.


I have been looking for help for 2 years. My first experience with therapy were interrogations, disappointments and costs. I don't even know what is my mental health problems but depression seem closely related.

[T4bbyCat]

Uncertainty, feeling of impending doom... as though things can collapse at any moment, probably for reasons I can't predict.

[Fuzzybear]

People who pretend to care to make themselves look good

People who hurt my friends

[Skeezyks]

No motivation to do anything... just plodding along doing what has to be done... mind turning to mush.

[Wandering by]

Same here. I feel like I could have the world at my feet if I could get the motivation. Any at all. I know what I need to do, but I can't do it.
Just now eating lunch at 7:40pm.

the world sucks donkeyballs

that's why I'm here.... it needs to be said, if I had any idea what I was doing with my life I'd be... well, doing it

I just dislike life and everyone in it

[Buffy01]

Everything that went wrong in my life that is beyond my control.

[Mountaindewed]

Group tomorrow and my health issues.

[Deilla]

The sun going down, it being late in the day, the cold, feeling tired, etc. All those things are contributing to my feelings of sadness.

[jrae]

everything

[Deilla]

Not having the support I need. Things not going my way. Roadblock after roadblock. I guess what I need is "radical acceptance." It is what it is.

right now, I am upset that my treatment team can't seem to wish me a merry christmas or wish me happy holidays.

they can say yeah, see you next year, and we need to see if it's worth keeping you on because of lack of progress, (true story, though I guess), but they can't wish me happy holidays or tell me merry christmas.

especially after the roler coaster that's been 2020

well **** them. I don't need them to wish me a merry christmas anyway, specially if they are just going to ditch me like everyone else

Originally Posted by Deilla

Not having the support I need. Things not going my way. Roadblock after roadblock. I guess what I need is "radical acceptance." It is what it is.

ditto lack of support.

it sucks