what's depressing you at the moment?

Don’t know if I could call it depression but I’m sad about the condition of the world. This year has been incredibly hard on everyone no nation hasn’t been affected by mask rules and regulations. So difficult and frustrating and very sad for humanity.

I had a memory bag. It had a letter my grandfather wrote to my grandmother while he was stationed overseas during WWII, it had all my most treasured pictures from while I was growing up(family reunions, deceased family members, friends that I've lost touch with, pets that are no longer here, my special moments as a kid etc...), it had a couple drawings my aunt had made to cheer me up, poems I wrote as a teenager and a few other things that ironically I can't remember. Whenever I was SUPER depressed I liked to go through it and remember happier times.

Several years ago hubby needed a backpack to carry something and dumped out my memory bag and used it. He put some of the things here and some there and others he couldn't remember what he did with them. Well I checked the places he said he put them and all said and done I found about 5 pictures that's it.

Well tonight I am super sad and I would like to see times when I was happy and people who made me happy...I miss my memories

I'm just down this morning. I didn't get enough sleep last night and now I'm worrying about silly things. I will try to sleep more later on.

I wish I had more people checking in with me on a personal level.

I only have like 1 regular person who does, and he's usually at work when I want to chat.

plus: I'm not sure if he talks to me because he wants to, or because he can't find the words to tell me I'm too much

and especially during these times.... more people to talk to would be nice

Starting to believe things are never as they seem. Then again, it’s not healthy to assume the worst, but it does feel like sometimes things aren’t as they seem at all.

Not understanding why I’m sleeping so badly. And I miss my therapist a lot right now. I was told the other day when I said I had no idea why my sleep is so bad that there has to be a reason. But I’ve cut out caffeine, tried going to bed later, I got a memory foam mattress topper, and things are just worse with my sleep then they were before.

never again will I be spoken to like I shouldn't matter. anyone who believes in an all or none mentality has no sense of reasoning or compromise. another relationship not worth salvaging.

My male cat's been crying. I'm not sure why. I fed him, cleaned his litter box and gave him water. He's been to the vet recently about his crying. There's nothing wrong with him. He goes to the door to cry. I know he escaped today when I was getting my groceries. He made it all the way down the breezeway and was headed for the street. I wonder if he just wants to go out. There's another cat that's been hanging out around our apartment. I've read that could be upsetting him. If I go to bed, he'll join me and will be fine. I guess that's what I need to do.

I have no one to celebrate the christmas or new year with me. Not only because of the pandemic, but also because I have no one.
I guess I realized what this December's disaster: being alone.

Group. I felt like I talked too much and said weird things.

How old is the cat? And is he fixed?? My nieces (male) cat did that too and he was in heat! He needed to get fixed. After getting fixed he calmed down and no longer cried.

He's 6 years old. Yea, he's been fixed. He just has a bad habit of crying a lot sometimes. It's every once in a while. I use Feliway pheromones for him. It's a diffuser. I'm wondering if I need to refill it. I also have a calming spray I can try. But tonight, I put my headphones on and tuned him out. He decided to go to sleep. I guess he wants attention but I've done a lot with him already.

Being alone on the holidays. Not knowing what to do with myself. Not feeling like cooking for Christmas. Having no one to talk to.

I had set out for a fairly long bike ride and then it rained after only 15 minutes. I headed back home and then it stopped. Well, I'll just go on a shorter ride later but I was looking forward to that longer ride.

Also, for some strange reason, I took a photo of myself by my cell phone. I sent it to my email address and it hasn't appeared. I don't know what the problem is. And I feel like I don't look that great on my photo.

And yes, I feel bad for being alone at this time, too.

No, I was wrong. I just got what is the real disaster this year, the real curse of December. Now I fear for my life...

Nothing to fear but fear itself. I feel deceived, lied to, manipulated and wronged. Best I can do for myself is not walk into the same trap and hopefully hold onto what is important to me.

Sick and crying cats.

Dealing with BPD emotions

Running out of energy and feeling exhausted.

The prospect of January and a brand new year with nothing much to look forward to and lots to dread.

i am 25 broke without job, drop out
and mentally sick not able to move on over my ex she is dating someone new

Nothin really. Not at the moment, anyway. I was experiencing some pain earlier, but I took Tylenol and Advil. That is helping. I think today looks like a good day.

That I'm struggling to do things like wash the dishes, clean the litter box, give the cats water and clean the counters. Physically I hurt and I am very tired.

spam emails.

I really don't understtand why people waste their time with it... this latest one is about transfering money to a guy from saudi arabia.

not gonna happen!. I can barely aford things myself

also (but this is making me less depressed, more angry) someone thinks that I'm this person's girlfriend

ugg. I don't do that stuff