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#81
I'm sad, but don't really know why. Its all encompassing. I was writing some poetry and that set it off. All the memories and regrets came rushing back to me. I'm afraid of losing people even if there's no reason to worry.
I'm thinking the answer, for me, is to help others, somehow. I need to feel needed. __________________ Once you are real, you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.... |
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Member Since May 2019
Location: Canada
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#82
I've hit a bit of a roadblock with this chapter. I started it three days ago and I set a self-imposed deadline of today. But it's likely to take another two days. I've set a revised goal of 50,000 words before I enter residential treatment, which should happen over the next 2-3 weeks. I'm at nearly 30,000 words, and with little else to do during the days I should be able to reach it.
Until then, I'm very sad every now and then. It comes on randomly and it strikes very hard. I feel so alone. I crave emotional intimacy and real relationships, but I am incapable of achieving them. It has been a very long time since I was in anything that remotely resembled a relationship or had any friends. I am hopelessly inadequate compared to everyone around me; what they seem to manage so effortlessly is impossible for me. Everyone else seems to be able to scale the tallest mountains with ease, while I'm all but completely incapable of walking up a gently-sloped hill. And there's no way this is ever going to change. |
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Member Since Jul 2008
Location: TARDIS
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![]() It’s the kind of thing that keeps me awake at night sometimes. I feel so vulnerable and the more I try not to think about it, the more I think about it. ![]() ——— Sent from my iPhone __________________ ![]() ![]() Hmmm....looks like some good tips in here. "Okay, enough photos. I'm a very BUSY Business Kitty, so make an appointment next time." |
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#84
Yesterday morning I felt depressed when I first got out of bed. But then I felt better when fixing breakfast. But while I was fixing breakfast I picked up something from the floor to throw away and then my lower back hurt. That sunk my mood way down. The back pain remained for the rest of the day and night.
This morning the pain is still there but not as bad. I'm still having it late this afternoon but I think it could get better by tomorrow. I cleaned, this morning, despite having the back pain. I felt depressed in the afternoon. Someone, this afternoon I spoke to, reminded me that I don't do much with my life - like trying new things. It made me feel bad talking about it. I don't know why people have to be insensitive. When having depression, I don't feel like trying new things. Besides, I have tried new things and it all didn't work out. |
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