[jacq10]

I can't do this anymore.

There is just WAY too much going on in my life right now, and I CAN'T let the depression take over. It's already affecting my concentration (which is not good in the mist of midterms and paper deadlines), and it's affecting my mood so much that all I want to do is cry, but I can't, and all I want is to feel like I matter, but I don't, and I'm so not even close to being worthy.

And I have a bunch of T appt's and dr appt's this week, so I am working on it, but its just so damn overwhelming. And everyone that i'm close to is so far away... literally on both ends of the country, and I feel so distanced. I need my aunt back

I'm sorry.

I've been avoiding posting on here because everything has been so triggering lately. So I appologize for not being around and not being supportive. So you don't need to be supportive back, i don't expect that. I just needed to post because I needed to disrupt my thinking... I needed to try and get a handle on these cognitive distortions of mine.

I'm sorry everyone. I'm done now

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((((((jacq))))))))))))))))))))))))))

BB

[nowheretorun]

((((Jacq)))))) huggie people : )

[RozG]

((((((((((jacq))))))))))

I've found the best thing to do when you feel bad IS to post.

How can we all let you know we're here for you if you don't let us know.

Hope you feel better soon.

[jacq10]

Thank you guys

(((((((BB, Nowhere, Jane)))))

[nowheretorun]

its ok Jacq... smile hon .... you matter : ) want to know why?

because theres a smile in your eye and song in your heart and i read it on these pages... because ive seen you pull for others and stand up for good things and care about people... and that really matters Jacq...

so yes, imo, you matter very much..

more huggie people..

[jacq10]

Thank you Darrell, I think YOU'RE the good person here though.



..... I have to admit, the huggie people do help a little

[nowheretorun]

un uh Jacq... i dont want this to be about me and im getting cornered in that humility corner... you might know it..

i am happy the huggy people help Jacq cause your smile and the huggy people is all it took that one time you helped feel better... maybe you didnt even know i was feeling bad that day ...

you matter Jacq.... this ones about you...

[jacq10]

I'm sorry Darrell, I didn't mean to embarrass you or anything, that was just my way of saying thank you for what you said, and it means a lot to me.

Maybe next time I should just come out and say that huh?!

[nowheretorun]

lets just do the huggie people this time ((((Jacq))))))) : )

[pegasus]

Oh! I know how it is to feel extremely overwhelmed! You'll get through this...

And hugs! (((((((((( jacq ))))))))))

[jacq10]

Thank you (((((((((Pegasus))))))))))

[Cthomas]

Hey im sorry i just saw this.

Anything i can do? you know how to get me....

You can handle this...i know you can.

youre stronger than you let on......

Colleen

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( jacq ))))))))))))))

[Cyran0]

Jacq, I know that feeling. The tidal wave of pressure and responsibility pounding down on you as you stand, isolated and alone, in the barren expanse of your internal and external worlds. It's not fair that circumstances can be so cruel to someone already dealing with so much. And in the end there's only one thing you can do, press on with the knowledge that the circumstances will change.

Also take some solace in the fact that your full, compassionate heart is felt by so many and people can't help but love you (even if they are on opposite coasts).

Life is sometimes cold and hard and lonely but then, sometimes it isn't.

Cyran0

[jacq10]

(((((((((Colleen, Fuzzy, Cyran0))))))))

"Life is sometimes cold and hard and lonely but then, sometimes it isn't." - Thank you. I needed to hear that.

[Cthomas]

Hey buddy,

How you doin today? was thinking bout ya this mornin.

Hoping you are taking good care.

Colleen

[jacq10]

I'm doing a bit better... I was able to make it through my ridiculous day yesterday, and so i just have to try and get through tomorrow. But I do have my T appt then, and a pdoc one on friday so i'm hopefull for those.
Thank you for caring...

[Cthomas]

Always care when it comes to YOU

hugs,

C

[goofydr1]

I agree with you. Feeling overwhelmed is the worse feeling in the world.

[ECHOES]

((( jaqc10 ))) I'm just now seeing this. I'm sorry it's been a hard week for you.
It sounds like you've been able to get through it one day at a time. That can be so hard. But you're doing it!

I hope your appointments today and tomorrow are helping you feel better