[jacq10]

Why do people have to make such a big deal out of them?

It's just another day of the year. But no everyone has to talk about going home and spending time with their family and having big meals full of laughter and joy.

Ok. maybe i don't hate holidays... but its just not fair. Everyone that I love is so far away from me. All the time they're far away.

I wish i could be with my Aunt. Her laughter fills the room and her love for you just radiates from her. Or with my cousin. Or even with my mom.. or dad.. or my brothers. I miss them too.

I won't even touch the fact that there are other people out there that i love and care about... but they don't remotely care at all. Not even enough to reply to a simple email after months of no contact. Not even enough to pretend like she cares... like she use to pretend so well.

But now I'm side-tracking.

I guess I'm just sick of being alone. I thought it was what I wanted... but I think i was just trying to protect myself. Too bad it only further isolated me

[x_BabyG_x]

Oh dear Jacq.

I felt the same when I moved to Cyprus last year, I had absolutely nobody since everybody I knew lived in England! But I quickly learnt that - even though I would rather be around others - holidays werent so bad after all as I used them for some 'me' time, everybody needs me time now and again! It can be good to be alone sometimes...

babyg xxx

[jacq10]

Actually i won't even have any "me" time as I will be at work all weekend, and when I'm not there, I will be working at home on the many assignments that are all due next week! but I think in my case its better for me to keep busy... if i have too much time I get to thinking like this

Thanks for your response though, and I hope that you're not feeling this way anymore either.

[Christina86]

(((((((((Jacq))))))))))))

From one holiday sufferer to another...

Holidays suck. Especially alone ones. Or ones with the family (really depends on the situation).

You're not entirely alone... anyone at all to hang out with that's not going home/spending time with the family this weekend? I know I'm spending a sickening large amount of time at church... just to be around people, so I don't sit in bed and mope.

School assignments and whatnot to fill up the time kinda is a bummer too... which reminds me, I should probably be studying. Oopsies.

Sorry, sidetracked majorly.

If we lived closer together, I'd say we should hang out for the holidays/whenever so that way we can eat junk food (sooo good for stress, and yet so bad) and chat.

Love you lots. Hold on. You'll get through this. We'll both get through this horrid holiday alone, together. (Sad irony).



Sorry, I'm not very useful. I care about you.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( jacq )))))))))))))

[nowheretorun]

'I guess I'm just sick of being alone. I thought it was what I wanted... but I think i was just trying to protect myself. Too bad it only further isolated me.'

(((Jacq)))) isnt self acceptance key? knowing where you are now? accepting it? then making plans, allowing yourself mistakes, forward progressing, thinking happy and hopeful thoughts about the future a good way to go with it?

sending lots of the little huggy people...

[jacq10]

(((((((Christina))))))) I suppose I will be around the people I work with this weekend... better than nothing. Thanks for the support friend, muchly appreciated

(((((((Fuzzy))))))) Same for you fuzzy. You're always there to lean on whenever I need a hug

((((((((nowhere))))))) As always, you are right. I wish self-acceptance were JUST a little easier though something to work on anyhow. Huggy people back atcha

[Cthomas]

Hey jac,

Hoping you can feel better this weekend. wanna chat?

Colleen