holidays

I don't know how I are going to get through this week. My (ex)husband will have my sweet boys on thanksgiving and the day after. I will be alone on thanksgiving. I have every day this weekend thinking about how different the holidays are going to be this year. I don't know if I am going to make it. I have had nightmares the last few nights and hardly any sleep. It seems like everything is coming down on me at once. Memories of my past, panic attacks now, SI now, my abusive husband being able to have visitation with my boys. My family still wanting me married to the jerk who continues to hurt me any chance he gets, like picking up the children. They just don't understand. No one does. I don't know how to go on. I feel lost and alone.

oh honey I so know how you feel..

My ex's family want me married to the father of my second child and I no longer love him.. They have made my life a living hell since I got married last month..

I know excatly how you feel..

I feel for you so bad..

Keep your head held high ok..

Things will get better.. ok..
You are not alone, we are all here for you ok

I dread the holidays too...I am so sorry for your pain...it won't help much but can you come here many of us may be on and maybe rent a movie ...just anything to keep busy...pop in on a friend with a pie

Thanksgiving isn't my favorite time of year, either. My boyfriend is away with family, and I'm alone, except for his bird. My OCD is a big part of it--I'm invited to visit his family with him, although I would feel kind of bad doing that because my mom is here, even if I can't visit her, either; my OCD makes it so I can't go in other people's houses, among other things. I haven't had a real Thanksgiving dinner in years. I don't even ask for turkey for sandwiches anymore, because I don't know if the meat would last long enough (he leaves about a week before the holiday), but I do get a pumpkin pie. We almost couldn't find French Vanilla Cool Whip this year (it wasn't there when we shopped on our regular grocery day, but my bf did find it when he returned the day before he was to leave to make sure I had enough food and drinks), which is one of the things I've gotten to like.

I'm sorry things are changing (for the worse?) in your life. Please go ahead and plan some regular holiday stuff for yourself (and just in case the ex changes things up and doesn't take or keep the kids!) Holidays are tough for everyone... and those of us who suffer from loneliness, depression, and most any other mental health issue find holidays especially tough. sometimes, holidays are greatly overrated, you know? My T has helped me in times past by helping me think that "it's just another day" and once it's over, yeah, it was.... TC

My mom has issues with her family so there is always some reason why we shouldn't get together. For some reason the issues come up around thanksgiving I wished I knew why

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I wish you were not in pain. I know from my life what horror the holidays can be. Can you possibly volunteer where a church or community group is giving away Thanksgiving dinner to the homeless? It would keep you very busy and help others, too.

Hugs,

Jan

We are so sad and crying and feeling lonely. tommorow is thanksgiving with Mother and father and brother and his wife. His wife hates me and we are so scared of her hurting us again she has said so many cruel things in the p ast. we are lonely we have no friends except for the kind souls who have posted here to us. We are lost , T is not avaiable he doesn't do crisis calls only once a week which we totally respect except we are feeling so desperate tonight wish we could talk to someone who understands anything we are saying?