[Anony]

I've always had problems releasing my anger. I think it's because I don't have the energy to throw a fit. But lately I can feel my anger just building up inside of me sometimes to the point where I could cry. What am I angry about? I don't really know... I guess everything. I'm furious at the hand I was dealt in life; I'm furious at the hand my family was dealt in life; I'm furious that no matter how hard I try to do things I always fail... no matter what; I'm furious that I have depression; I'm furious that I have social anxiety, ocd, and anything else that makes up who I am: I'm furious that there are so many scammers and indecent people in this world and that I am somehow always drawn towards them. And last but not least... I'm furious that I'm furious.

[gimmeice]

((((((Anony))))))))
I'm sorry you are going through such a difficult time.

[Anony]

Thanks gimmeice... for caring

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((Anony))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry for all your pain. I hope you can start to work through them a little at a time.

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[CharlotteSometimes]

I know what you mean. < I usually feel like that on a daily basis from pent up anger.

[Anony]

Thanks bipolar_bear. I'm sure I'll feel somewhat better when I wake up tomorrow morning

[Anony]

((((((CharlotteSometimes))))))). Hopefully we'll both get through this someday

[nightbird]

I felt that way at one time.

Perhaps it started changing as I grew older, or when I became less vulnerable to influences around me, or began making better choices and created less stressful enviorments for myself, but I noticed this type of anger dissipate. Most importantly, really really knowing myself helped me aviod what I usually regretted.

If the depression thing would go away altogether, I'd be happier too!

We all feel certain pain with our lives - it's tolerating it, how we tolerate it, that helps, I think. Hope you feel relief soon.

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[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( Anony )))))))))))))
I'm sorry things are so hard, sending good thoughts and care

[Anony]

Thanks nightbird and Fuzzybear. I appreciate the thoughtfulness of your comments.

I agree nightbird that it would help if I created a less stressful environment for myself. My life's always been hectic but it is something I need to start working on.

[puckyjan56]

anony-i have pent up anger too and my pdoc says it would help my depression if i would let it out, but how? I'm thinking about you and maybe that release will come soon. have you got a big pillow??? wham the stuffing out of it. good luck and sending hugs your way pj

[Doh2007]

I used to feel like that a lot. I hated the feeling.

[Pseudonym]

It comes and goes for me. It also alternates between wanting to harm and wanting to be harmed. The problem is that it's often unexpected, and I can't make plans to go to the gym and kick the stuffing out of the punching bags.

I have done what Jan has suggested, though, in the past, punching my bed/pillow, and screaming into the pillow. I don't think the screaming itself helps as much as the self-realization that you look like an idiot while you're doing it...

[shaggy76]

i know it's crazy stuff. i hope you can find a way to ease some of these feelings and the you can find some kind of peace. my thoughts and hugs going your way.

[Christina86]

(((((((((((((Anony))))))))))))))