[Taonuviel]

Starting to, anyway. Stopped taking half my Effexor - I believe that's the one that's been making me so drowsy, which leaves me feeling more depressed. I know I shouldn't make such decisions, but I couldn't keep going like this until I see the doctor's NP for my follow-up appointment. Feeling so crappy all the time only lead me to "escape" thoughts, so halfing it on my own can't get me any worse off.

I'm thinking about asking my RA to keep my meds and only have about 2 days' worth on me at any time. Everytime I see those bottles I'm so tempted to swallow them all as if they were no big deal. But I know better than that, I know I probably wouldn't succeed (because I theorize God isn't done with me and would prevent me), and I don't want the consequences that would have on school - which I pretty much like. But I don't know if I can get myself to give them up, or give up my thoughts, a large part of me wants to hold on to them, kinda hoping for their use.
I don't know. It's depressing.

[shakes]

((((Tao)))))
Sorry to hear this. I do not have any advice, but I wanted to let you know that I did read this.

Jessica

[SeptemberMorn]

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[Wants2Fly]

I'm glad you are feeling better, but concerned about making the decisn on your own. Isn't anyone in your physcian's office available to talk with by phone, even if only so they are in the loop? I have to be very careful about how I take Effexor because lowering the dose causes severe headaches.

((((((((((Jessica)))))))))))

[Taonuviel]

Thanks

I didn't see much choice, I couldn't stay so terribly down and exhausted, not only did it feel horrible, it was getting dangerous. When I called their office I mentioned I thought I might be on too much Effexor, and they said they couldn't change it without seeing me, but my appointment Friday is the soonest time they have available that I can get there. I couldn't wait another week and a half, so I took it down. But I'm still on it, along with three other psychotropics, just less of that one. I'm less tired and haven't had any withdrawl effects, so I think it's ok. I don't believe I could last through next week with the track I was on, I had to do it.

[Taonuviel]

I'm sinking, and I don't know what to do about it. I don't want to do anything, just sleep, and I hate this, I don't want to deal with it, just have it all end. I have so much to do but I hardly care anymore, and I can't see any answers to this, just stuck. Full force depression, and I feel too worn away from it, I just want to collapse and forget it.
I've only been up two hours, but I'm so depressed and tired I can't stay awake, but I hardly have the energy to get up into bed(top bunk), and everything just sucks, the littlest thing up.

[Wants2Fly]

Are weekends the worst for you, as they are for me? ((((((((Taonuviel)))))))))

[Taonuviel]

Yeah, but no days have been any good lately, they're just getting more unbearable, and I don't know how to handle it anymore.

I'm sorry they're crappy for you, too.

[(JD)]

I gather the no - no is going off your medicine? You bet it's a no no! now get back on it ... these "newer" anti depressants really play with the brain and chemicals. They are soooo specialized and you do NOT want to mess with them! If you can take that kind of responsibility for yourself, then you certainly have the power to call the doctor and discuss how you feel and wonder if it is the medicine!

What dose were you on compared to when you began, how recently did you start the med? You might not have even been at a therapeutic dose, and you're quitting already? Ok, sorry, I'm not in a mood to hold someone's hand AND feed them BS: you need to take your medicine until your doctor says otherwise.

The very type of thing that can help you feel better... is right within your reach. Please think more about yourself and call your doctor... Logical thinking ain't hackin it fer ya!

[Taonuviel]

A month, I'm still taking half of it (150 of 300mg), besides all the other mood stabilizers and Wellbutrin. It can't be hurting me any more than it was, I'd be where I am either way, at least this way I had a chance of it being better - that maybe I wouldn't be so tired so I'd be less depressed. But it doesn't matter. None of these medicines are helping. It's so pointless.