that all too familiar feeling of being alone.

Feeling down and out today...in fact this whole week.

I have no one here to physically help me get ready for my flight back home. I don't know how I'm going to get the trainstation, let alone all the way to airport. I'm so anxious my heart's been beating really fast the past couple of days. Probably because I've been smoking like a bandit and eating tylenol like pez.

I should have accepted the offer from my parents for one of them to come over and help me. But it would be more expensive and I know I'm such a money waster.

I feel alone and depressed. If I don't hear back from my tandem partner about getting a ride to the trainstation I'm going to bawl my eyes out for hours. The last thing I want is to miss my flight and be stuck here....I couldn't handle that.

I need to go home...

((((((((((((((((((( meccorad )))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I am sorry that you are having problem with getting ready for your flight, hopefully you hear something soon. It concerns me that you are eating tylenol like pez, taking to much tylenol can have some bad health effects.

hope you make it home meccorad, ive heard some things about tylenol also, so be careful, hoping that you tandem partner contacts you soon.... a lot of times ive panicked myself and then plans went exactly as they should, but, i understand the fear you're having, so, try and hang in there, it all can still work out...

Thanks...

Yeah I know the whole popping pills thing isn't a good thing, but it helps a bit with the stress. And lately the stress has been overwhelming. I don't have a safe-place anymore; somewhere where I could feel safe and relax. That's gone right out the window when I SIed and foolishly decided to ask for help instead of shutting up....

If my tandem partner doesn't contact me by monday I'm going to be in a world of crap. I don't know of any other way of getting my key to my landlord, and making it to the airport all by 8am.....there's just so much to do and not enough time.

I hope it gets sorted out quick. Focus, you need to focus and do things you have to do so you can get back to your country in time. Im sorry to hear all these crap and for having a hard time out there in a foreign land ;[

Keep calling your tandem partner and explain to him/her that this is really important for you.

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((((((((((((((( meccorad )))))))))))))))

Please let us know if you got that ride. Keep calling.

Try to focus on organizing things to get back home.

Good luck!

meccorad, keep us posted on how you got on, please.

Thanks everyone.

I haven't gotten a call back from my tandem partner about the ride to the trainstation, so I'm extremely worried about how I'm going to get to the airport. I just closed my student account at the university today and that was nerve wracking. I had to run to the student building for my apartment contract, then to the student office to de-register myself, then back to the foreign exchange office to ask for help, then right back to the building for my apartment contract. The woman there was less than helpful, probably because I couldn't understand her and she was probably thinking I'm some dumb american student. So I've smoked about 8 cigarettes within an hours time.

There's so much more to get done before I leave, assuming I can leave on time. I called my partner but didn't get through. I don't know what else to do. There's no time for relaxation.....

(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) i am really sorry. Any way you could call your parents and ask them now for a lift?