Made fun of...not doing well.

Yesterday was an anniversary...the 8 year anniversary of the abuse from my ex bf. I decided to go to a friend's house for a picnic. But the whole time my dad couldn't put me down enough, make fun of me, etc. I've been a mess since he made me the laughing stock of all my friends...I feel so worthless once again.

He's giving me the silent treatment today...I don't know why either....so it's making this 10 times worse for me. I feel like such a bad person. I tried to talk to my friend and all she says it's a shame that some parents are like that...no real support...nobody sticking up for me...nobody telling me I'm not some worthless piece of crap!

I've been really fighting off the urges to SI...all I wanna do is sleep...I don't wanna be here right now. It's taking all my energy just to post this...

(((((((((((((((( TaintedGoth )))))))))))))))))))

I am sorry that your dad is treating you this way, you are not a worthless piece of crap.

((((((((((((((( Lexi )))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((((((Tainted)))))))))))))))))))))) sorry you are having a hard time. you are soo not worthless! you have cheered me up today already. Thank you. And your dad should not do this to you, it is mean. you deserve better.

No one ever deserves to be called a worthless piece of crap, especially from their parents. Just ignore it, cuz you know your better than that.

you are golden dear person, don't let these people finish the job on your self esteem ... because they feel like dirt.

reject their ridicule and rise above that behavior - from being affected by it.

you are so much better than all of that!

you are golden - beautiful - worthwhile - important ...
your dad feels small so he acted accordingly.

keep your eye on the prize.

peace,
nightbird

You are a special person, and worth a million. Some people make fun of things they don't understand, and it's a shame that many parents harm there children with words. You are not alone and your friends are there for you.

I hope you know that when people treat others like this (especially a parent to their own child) that it's almost always a problem they have with themselves- and it's just so much easier to put it on you. You have to know you're not worthless at all, and this mean-spirited treatment is a cowardly way to redirect their own bad feelings. You're a precious person. And you do matter.

I think it's your father who has a problem, not you. He could learn a lot from you.

You have a lot of worth and a lot of strength.

it is totally not cool to be made fun of

Awww...thank you everyone...I want you all to know how much I truly appreciate your kind words and thoughts.

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Hi TaintedGoth1

I'm sorry he gave you such a hard way to go. I'm also glad you are fighting off the SI urges and are here with us. Please have a peaceful sleep and hopefully things might be a bit better tomorrow.

Take care,
Dee

((((((((((((((((taintedgoth))))))))))))))))

Your dad is completely out of order. I'm so sorry you have suffered this. You are a gracious and warm, giving person. Do not listen to the lies he thinks are so amusing .... you are here amongst friends, know he is the one on the wrong, i wish you a good day and I'm so sorry you are in pain. safe and warm hugs to you, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I'm doing better today.

My self esteem has always been really low and my dad just makes it worse.

Your dad is a jerk. We know you are a good person. You don't deserve this.

(((((((((((((( Lexi )))))))))))))))
You're a good person and you certainly do not deserve this

((((((((((((taintedgoth)))))))))))))

so glad you are feeling better. My mum was the same, whenever she had a chance to put me down she would ..... in front of anybody. You are a wonderful, caring person, don't let him beat you down.

hugs, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo