Sad

Under stupid bloody watch all day long.
With stupid bed-rest.
Withdrawal, doctor always bringing up a DX we disagree on and psych ward, in pain and not allowed painkillers are the icing on the cake.

Why do I actually bother. I don't get better. I drag the people I love down. I made them lose sleep when I was in hospital and now they have to fret over me and watch me. I fail to see how I'm really worth the effort.

I've been stuck in this rainstorm so long I may as well pitch a tent because I don't see how it's supposed to get better. My friend told me to list everything positive about myself. i ended up with this, which is what I always write when I'm asked this, because it's true.

Positive: I'm not a huge ego freak.

I'm just so tired of this, I don't matter. In one of those I could disappear and it wouldn't matter.

Sorry to whine as always.

(((((Griffe)))))

You definitely matter, and don't let the depression make you believe otherwise. And don't let your depression trick you into believing you'll never get better, either. As the Ancient Greek philosopher Heraclitus said, the only permanent characteristic of the universe is change. You deserve to feel better, and you are definitely worth the effort of your friends, family, and all of us here at PC.

Keep writing out your feelings. We'll be listening.

Take care,



J

Griffe.... you will get better, just let yourself believe .....

love to you my friend, hugs, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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It will get better, Everyone is here for you and we are all listening.
Everyone would care very much if you disappered, everyone here on PC,your family and your friends. The rainstorm will pass, it will I know it.

Lots of hugs
Silver

i dont think so many people are wrong griffe, you do matter and your suffering does matter... no one of us wants to feel again as you do now, we dont want you to feel so horrible either... we grew thru this stuff and it was really painful... there is something about yourself that only you know about... only you know what it is that keeps you coming back here everyday to share the load with us.. the community is here and doing its part.... because you matter.. if you didnt, all these people are wrong... they seem pretty insistent to me... consider it?

Thanks everyone.



But I feel like such &%#@ today and I don't see how/why I matter and I want to curl up and hide and just disappear. Friends are over to look after me, I still feel so alone. Sad and angry at life.

GF in hospital, every 'what if' running through my mind. I miss Vlad today. I wish he was here.

I hate having someone I love in hospital. My mind tells me all the worst things that could happen.

...

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I know you love animals .... so i found this .... aren't they cute?? love Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxo

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it was just a fall, and i know the worst things come to mind but i am sure you would have been informed if things were that bad. sending you happy thoughts and big hugs and wishing gf gets well soon. I can imagine that you miss vlad and i know that must be horrible. stay strong so when your gf is out of hospital you can be there for her. you aren't alone, but i do realise sometimes it feels like that. take care

Sorry to hear gf in hospital.Every thing will be ok.

I was always told only bad news travels fast. So I guess that means no news is good news. Sure as heck doesn't feel that way.

You take care of your self.

(((((((((((Griffe and G/F)))))))))))))))

hi there, i really hope the clouds clear for you.

Hey Vince, I know we all need words of encouragement once in a while that's why we write on this. Although we know what to do, we end up not knowing what to do, getting lost, screwing things up. We just need people to tell us we can do it, and you can do it ;]

I hope you're getting better.

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