[purplebutterfly]

my tears are building up my throat is closing in and i feel a huge lump in my throat as my chest tightens trying to hold the tears back, i feel like i am having a tug o war with my emotions today- one side of me is pulling me to feel one thing while the other side is pulling me to feel other things- its like im not in my body at times then i am and when im in my body my emotions are so intense i can not handle them anymore. sorry for taking your time reading this crap- im just venting, no big deal im not worth it.

[DOWNINNATICK]

You talking is not crap, you need to let it out and this is one way to do that. I know how you feel, I'm like that most of the time myself, if you have to cry, then cry, holding it back makes it feel worse. Try taking some deep breaths, relax and close your eyes and picture yourself in a save place, or go for a short walk to see if that helps. I have tried EFT Emotional Freedom Tech a/k/a Tapping and sometimes that helps just to relax. It may feel strange, but if you're alone don't worry about it and try it. Tapping.com is the site! If you need to talk more, you can PM me and I will listen. O'ya, I sometimes scream into a pillow to release the feelings.

purplebutterfly
you know we all care about you here and you are worth it
take some deep breaths
if you are having a tug of war with your self
try to stay on the side that feels good
remember self care
muffy

[nowheretorun]

sending you kind healing thoughts purple.. its very hard to feel so badly for so long... i hope the tears might give you some release for these awful feelings youre having to go thru.. i hope the therapy begins to help you soon so you can soon begin to smile again...

[complic8d]

if this helps, you are not alone

[Fuzzybear]

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