[kittymom]

Well, I can't believe it but I think I'm sliding back down the slippery slope of depression! I can't believe it because I've only been out of the hospital for 11 days, and when I first got out, I really did feel good. But now I'm moving (and not to a place where I really want to live, although financially it'll be good), and I'm quickly losing the motivation to pack and sort and stuff. Also, I've already been told that I'm being laid off, but the actual date is happening next Thursday, and I still don't have another job! I can't seem to get that thought out of my head. Also, I think the new meds that they put me on in the hospital may be making me gain weight......bleh. I probably wouldn't mind quite so much if I felt like they were keeping my head above water, but I'm starting to feel like I'm drowning in depression again.
Oh help me!!
I'm barely hanging on

[CedarS]

(((((((((kittymom))))))))

Best wishes to you, hope things ease up soon.

Can you break down your packing and sorting chores into phases and reward yourself after each? Do you have any fun distraction you can dive into?

[Fuzzybear]

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[kittymom]

Thanks. I have been trying to break down the packing into smaller bits, but now I'm at such small bits (like move one book) that I'm not really getting anything done. I don't really have anything super fun to look forward to, and I feel guilty the whole time I'm not packing because I have some very good friends who are helping me move and I don't want to let them down. I would reward myself with a little edible treat, but that's just adding to my weight-gaining problem.

God, I sound like such a whiny loser -- I'm so sorry. I just feel like the tide of depression is coming and I'm going to be swept away. I haven't started thinking about how to do myself in, yet, but I did have the thought earlier today that it would really be ok if I weren't here.

[CedarS]

Do you have a therapist or other health care person you can call? Can you tell them what you've told us here, how you are feeling and what your thoughts are?

I sure hear you about the overwhelm of moving amidst other stress, I'm going to have to do the same myself soon.