[purplebutterfly]

depressed, numb, crying on the inside and on the outside im trying to cover it all up and act happy and im about to break-

[Justgiving]

(((((((((Purplebutterfly)))))))))

Can you call someone IRL who will listen to you, support you?

[silver_moon]

((((((purple))))))
try not to cover your feelings up, why do you want to cover up the fact that you're really depressed? are you doing it for you or other people?
if it's for you, does it make you feel any better?

take care

[purplebutterfly]

i guess in a way im doing it for me- maybe if i think im okay and happy maybe it will just go away- i know this is not true and then im trying to make others believe im okay- they are tired of it all

[cantstopcrying]

You aren't that far off--a huge part of healing is positive thoughts. Not ignoring the problem and covering it up with Pollyanna fake cheerfulness, but being positive (and being positive you'll have a crappy day does not count! I've tried that). Even though on the inside at first we'll still feel bad, if we believe that we will be ok and work toward that, I think it's a valueable and important first step. And chocolate helps, too. Hang in there, you are doing great!

be you ((Purple)))))))))))))))))))))))
first step to recover i think and i could be wrong is being you saying how you feel
can you call your T and tell her or him you are having a hard time again?
Its a huge step to say how you feel on here I am proud of you
muffy

[silver_moon]

everyone else aren't tired of it... we, here on pc will always listen. And you're family and friends... they're probably frustrated in themselves because they want you to be happy, but can see that you're struggling and they don't know what to do. But, if you hide it from them, they won't know to help you, they won't know you need comforting.
Are you still seeing your T?
((((((purple)))))) I wish I could say something to make all your troubles and pain go away,
Molly

[nowheretorun]

covering it up never worked long for me purple.. finding the right people to listen and care made the most significant difference for me... i wish it hadnt taken so long for me to learn what i needed to know.. caring people made the biggest difference tho... i hope you can begin to feel better soon, even if only little by little... i hope knowing that others have compassion for your pain helps in some way.. it mattered to me a lot to know i mattered... there have been some days recently i havent felt so positive but for me having hope and joy defeats the alternative... possibly some have less choice and that is truly unfortunate... i offer them my compassion, but of all things ive learned or known, not giving up is probably the simplest and most helpful tool i had ... wishing you the best always...

[nightbird]

It's okay to cry ... and the relief that comes afterwards makes it worth it, yes?

Hope you have some peace and comfort this week, Dear Butterfly, and trust that you deserve it!

Love and Peace,
night

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( purple )))))))))))))))