[mms_14]

hi everyone,

im lonely, i dont have anyone to talk to who understands me and im scared to admit that i might have some serious depression problems and after reading some of the info's written on this website i feel that there might be hope...
I had suicidal thoughts for days now and feeling depressed on and off for sometime. Probably cost by pregancy and homesickness.

its 1.30am now and everyone's asleep...its very quiet, lonely and dark.
i feel so isolated most of the time, i live away from family and dont have real friends (friends i could share problems with openly with trust). My husband is a good man, his loving and supportive but his work often takes a lot of his energy and by the time I needed to talk to him his already tired and emotionally un-available.
there is more to that....but i will stop here and hopefully will get some input from what i have written so far? im normally a very private person and this is something new for me so who ever is reading this i will ask for your honest but loving responds.
a lot of people might say " i have nothing to complain about" i have healthy family, good home, food on the table" but for some silly reason that is not enough to fill the emptiness i feel inside.....

peace

[gimmeice]

(((((((((((( mms ))))))))))))))))
I know that it is very hard to feel like you have no one to talk to, I have my husband to talk to but he just don't get it and has a hard time understanding my situation. Please know that you can ask for support here, there are a lot of nice supportive people here to listen(read) when you need to talk(type).

[nowheretorun]

hi and welcome to PC

you can write out your feelings here and share your thoughts with others who might be feeling the same way or might have some ideas to help you.. if youve got some thoughts for us, toss them in no need to be lonely

[Soveh]

Originally Posted by mms_14

hi everyone,

a lot of people might say " i have nothing to complain about" i have healthy family, good home, food on the table" but for some silly reason that is not enough to fill the emptiness i feel inside.....

peace

I feel this way as well...I have a great job, a great husband who loves and understands my depression, a great mother in law who used to be a psychiatric nurse, a pair of wonderful Rat Terriers, a brand new car....why am I depressed, why do I feel empty most times when I should be on cloud nine??? my employers graciously allow me to come onto this site to help with my depression on breaks and my lunch 1/2 hr. I used to have unrestricted access to this site and they considered me an excellent employee-but now they can't or won't understand that I can NOT schedule when the depression hits me-coming here never interferred with my work before but NOT being able to come here when I need it...that hurts me, and they refuse to see it. I too am usually a very private person-I find it much easier to talk here than if I were with someone in person-this makes it easier in many ways....the problem I had at first was being totally honest with myself and others-especially my therapist. You are always welcome here-there is always at least one person here that knows where you're coming from because they've been there...if not exactly, then so close it might be scary. I hope things get better for you and for everyone else here. Blessed Be....Soveh

[darkrunner]

dear mms,

I'm glad you found us. It can help tremendously to know you are not alone. Sometimes it is easy to know why we are depressed, and sometimes it seems like there is no reason. Either way you deserve to be happy and feel good. Can you reach out for help from a therapist? Sometimes we all just need an extra bit of support to get through this life.
Please take care of yourself, and keep posting - we can all be here for each other.
ktgirl

[hurtingsadgirl]

I understand how you feel like that cause often i am lonely, i dont have anyone to talk to who understands me and im scared to admit that i might need more help then i thought iv had some suicidal thoughts for days now and feeling depressed on and off for sometime. Probably cost by my mom and dad divorce