Numb?

I feel so numb, yet at the same time there is a horrible pain in my chest, like my chest is just going to collapse, I want nothing anymore, nothing matters, nothing seems to make me care, numb, numb numb, yet at the same times I have these overwhelming moments of sensation, Like I am waking up from a dream, where I can feel everything and I become overwhelm, I don't know what to do anymore,
I just, want to curl up under the covers, and cry, cry until it is impossible to cry anymore.
Who am I? Who am I?

(((((((((((( silversparrow )))))))))))))))) You are you and you are an important person that matters. I am sorry that you are having a hard time, I hope it eases up on you soon.

*hugs*
I know how you feel I've been there
this morning was kind of there even.

It doesn't last forever though remember that.
Numbness is there to protect you - I just wish it would do a better job.

lots of hugs... what I said probably didnt help much - sorries

(((((((((((((silversparrow))))))))))))))))

hang on there, and cry if you need to
you will get through this, you will get through this
sending thoughts of strength and comfort,
ktgirl

(((((((((((silversparrow)))))))))))

It's ok to cry if you need. You need to look after yourself, that's all you need to do.

hi ((Sparrow)))) are you feeling any better?

Sparrow, I also hope you are feeling better today! Even one iota better...

Jmo/jme, but having a few good cries can be cleansing although it can drain us. Perhaps draining us is a good thing...we no longer have to put on that mask that covers our feelings.
Crying jags are, for me, one way to get rid of a lot of frustration, fears, controlled anger, and a host of other things.

Peace to you,
Cap

(((((((((((((((( Silversparrow )))))))))))))))))))

I am just, not sure...anymore...I just....cna't focus...no want to do this...no want go to T, no want no want, we are scared and hurting, crying crying crying...today bad day...no know what do

hi ((Sparrow))))

take it easy and slow, k? take some breaths and be safe right now...

its very very hard sometimes to do the inner work and sometimes its really really scary too... i hope you can think of the good reasons for taking care of you right now... i understand not understanding what is happening.. its the most frightening place to be..

you are not broken, just growing your wings...

hang in there silver you will get there.

((Sparrow))
nowheretorun made a statement and I sincerely hope you can hold onto it for there is much truth in it.
"You are not broken; just growing your wings."
Sometimes when we step out in faith that therapy, etc. is going to make things better, it's downright scary and disappointing to find out we are not going to sail through...
There's a certain kind of hell we have to walk through--crawling is all right, too--before anything gets better.

When we are doing the work we need to do, it can be overwhelming and give us the OS feeling. It's like we can't go back to where we were, the present stinks, and we have serious doubts about the future being good.
In many ways, you are right on schedule...as painful as that feels right now.

Talk with your T; don't keep him/her guessing as to what's going on...knowing will help your T address these things with you. It can be a ******, but it's a valuable way of shaking off some of the fear and hopelessness.

One step at a time,
Cap

(((((((((Silversparrow)))))))))))))

(((((Silver))))))

I love what NTR wrote to you - you are not broken, only growing your wings!

Sending loving thoughts your way and hope you relax, breathe deeply and seek positive reinforcement all thru the day, here and at home....

Keep moving forward... dance, Dear Silver, dance and make music happen in your life ... even if you start in your chair, you will be up in no time at all, swaying in the air, loosening up the tensions, and releasing the aches and pains ... dance the blues away ... sway and bend, lift and use your hands to express your inner beauty ... you can do it!!!!

love and Comfort,
night