Just need to talk...

Hello I'm a 19 (well soon 20) year old girl in college. Still coping from an on and off relationship last year (very brief relationship periods).

I was dating a gentleman with schizophrenia and I can't seem to get over him. I was there for him for whatever he needed. I don't understand why this is happening but I do know that I miss him very much. We're still friends which I think might be a problem. I have too much feelings for him to the point of feeling jelous when he talk about other girls.

I need to move on, but my self-esteem level is VERY low. I also have Multiple Sclerosis so this issue I'm going through isn't "peanuts" to my health.

I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now. Regardless of the length of time you've been with someone, there are certain people that you just connect with, and when that connection is no longer there, it hurts. A lot. Still being friends with him makes it hard too because you are still connected but not. Please don't look at this as a blow to your self esteem. As hard as it is, look at it as a gift: You were blessed enough to have known him, but now you move forward to meet the one you are intended to be with. I know the "why her and not me" record is probably playing in your mind--the answer is because you are meant for other things in your life. It's not a personal defect, it's not because you aren't (fill in the blank)_____ enough. Try to stay strong and believe in yourself.

Iam soorry for what happen to u....
the day will comes when everything will be okay..we just have to wait for that days and have to believe..

Trust in yourself and listen to yourself