Please, let me give in

I'm in tears, I'm in agony. My nightmares are either disturbing or about John... last night I had several... the last one being about J and I've woke up bawling... I just want to go, I can't stand thr hurt... of anything, it's not just J, everything.
I don't wnt to fight, I've nothing to fight for

feel sick

I am sticking it out so far, so you have to too.

If you won't fight for yourself, fight for the people who care about you. (Yes, they exist. You can find some of them on this board.)

We don't want you to feel miserable so help us.

hugs moon
there's stuff to fight for - there's feeling good again even if you don't think you can get there
yes you can let yourself be upset, you're allowed to be sad
but give yourself a treat.
give yourself something special just for you
you deserve it

be it some free time for a special game or activity, a special food treat, or a special walk outside - anything.
Just to try to remember what it is you're fighting for

(((((((((((( silver moon )))))))))))))



Please remember that things can and will get better, you are worth fighting for, please know that. You are a very special person, please hang in there.

molly we here love you..please fight for us we need you...

I think your little dolphins would disagree. You have the opportunity to impact the lives of young children--how wonderful is that?? I'll answer for you--it's very wonderful. You just don't know who you make an impact on--you could stop going there and maybe one little girl will wonder why you aren't there, wonder if she did something to make you stop coming, maybe she looked up to you and counted and seeing you there. I know I count on seeing you here. You feel like you have nothing to fight for. You have two bunnies who would starve without you, who wouldn't be happy without you. You have your future to fight for. You are very young with years and years ahead of you to fight for. This fight will make the future that much more precious.

(((((( fio )))))) (((((( turquiose )))))) (((((( gimme )))))) (((((( prue )))))) (((((( marci ))))))

Marci... Why do you always make me cry... and why do you always win

It's so hard to see the things I've got and I really hate that I seem ungrateful for them... my main thing at the moment is being alone... I can't be alone, I can't cope... but also, I have noone (IRL) that understands me anymore... I have noone that loves me and lets me love them, to share all my news and thoughts with and that's too hard for me to deal with right now.
Today I had to meet someone at a cafe (they're going to help me to find and join groups and socialise), but of course it was way too hard to go by myself so I took my mum with me. Anyway, me, my mum and this other lady were sat in this cafe having a drink and talking when one of the ladys friends came over to us with a baby girl. The baby was gorgeous, lots of thick , dark hair already. She wouldn't smile for my mum or the woman who i had the appointment with or her grandmother... but she smiled for me I got her to giggle and blow bubbles and I nearly cried.... that little girl knows no pain, knows hardly anything about the world she's going to grow up in. She was just an innocent little baby who managed to put a smile on my face.
Why am I crying! I'm too soppy

Anyways, that was off on a tangent..... thank you guys. I'm finding things so, SO hard right now... but it's so nice to know that there's someone here who'll listen to me rant (don't know why you put up with me )

*hugs*

I'm sat huddled up in a ball crying my eyes out I'm a mess, a big, big mess!

Hang in there silver_moon. I've been there and am having a rough time myself these days but know there are people out there that love and care about you. I've been here only briefly but I can see there are many people here who can relate to, if not completely understand or feel your pain.

You...are...not...alone! Even if there are times you may feel that way.

(((((((((((((( molly )))))))))))))))))))))