i know i have depression

Hi all,
I'm new here , as you can probably tell... I desperately needed somewhere to go as I know I have depression as I was diagnosed with it years ago by a doctor but never got any treatment for it and I think it's gotten worse and I don't know what to do because I try to tell my family and they don;t want to accept the fact that I've got depression. My mom tries to say it's the "blues" and everyone gets down sometimes,etc,etc blah blah blah... I've tried talking to her and even requesting help but my heathcare provider/whoever it was...I don;t remember....wanted to take all these kinds of tests on me,take blood and I didn't want to.Then they said they couldn't diagnose me or treat me for it that I'd have to go somewhere else so I just gave up and never went. I've always felt down and sad and empty and lonely and..the list can go on... since a very young age,like since 7th or 8th grade and it got worse in high school. Like I said, I was diagnosed with depression, I believe at the time it was not serious but all in all it was depression and the doctor wanted to give me meds but again my mom said no. This was when I was 18. I feel it has gotten worse over the years. I'm 32 now. I just don't know what to do or how to do it! My life feels like it's going nowhere.My girlfriend doesn't know I feel this way and I don't wish to tell her in fear of her breaking up with me. We get into fights alot lately and I find that that is adding to the depression.I feel like this pretty much every day,all day.Sometimes I feel kind of alright/happy but it's short-term.I notice it worsens when we fight or if someone or something goes wrong or yells at me/fights,etc. I also have bad neck and back pain,trouble sleeping,loss of appetite and just don;t feel right.I feel like I'll never amount to anything and my life is a failure....and I'm getting more depressed now talking about it....... Any help would be greatly appreciated but if noone can,that's cool too, I'm used to it.bye

I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad. It does effect all areas of your life. Can you now go and see someone professionally for how you are feeling? Talk to them and see what they think? Maybe your gp can suggest someone for you. I hope you decide to seek someone to help alleviate all the pain both physically and emotionally you are in. I am glad you found us.

BB

Welcome to PC. You have come to the right place for support and friends that can listen. I am sorry that you feel so down and depressed. You need to go see a doctor so that like BB said you can have both your physical and emotional pain alleviated. You can choose to do it all on your own, but you don't have to. There is help out there and you are not alone. Take care.

Welcome!

I'm sorry you are feeling so low, it sounds like you are ready to try and do something about this. One in four people will suffer from a mental health problem in their life, you are not alone. Please look into getting some professional help.

Man, definitely you have to get professional medical evaluation and treatment. As soon as possible, really.
And let us know. We all care

Hello it's nice to meet you. I agree with what the others have said, you should seek treatment, it really does help. Health problems can add to your depression. Please keep posting here, this is a very supportive place.