[chrise]

i'm tired of hearing myself. but, i dont know what do. i feel like i fell to th floor of the black hole like a rag doll. i'm laying in a heap on the floor, cold, dark and lonely. i cant eat, cant sleep and cant stop my thoughts. they dont take me to a good place. sometimes they scare me. i want to jump out of my own skin. i see the doc on fri. i need my meds changed.if i make it till then. im tired of faking it to everyone. im really not ok.i have so much trouble talking to people. why cant i tell them im not ok. i want help. i just cant seem tell anyone. im sorry im rambling.

[daggy]

Hi Chrise
I know the feeling of not being able just to tell someone what I'm feeling inside .how the aches and the darkness seem to be just to much to fight .
I have to wait till Monday to see my doc and its not even him but one of the fill ins for Christmas. Try telling a stranger how you feel and how many pills will get me up in the morning and how many to so I can sleep . All in 3 minutes. Never mind the part of feelings well being.
Friday isn't that far away and the black hole wont pull you in all the way just a little tug to make you stronger
There is always someone that will listen to any of us that like to rant now and then.
So we pick ourselves up and get ready for the next round .
There is always a somewhere
Hope this helps

[Puffyprue]

Originally Posted by chrise

i'm tired of hearing myself. but, i dont know what do. i feel like i fell to th floor of the black hole like a rag doll. i'm laying in a heap on the floor, cold, dark and lonely. i cant eat, cant sleep and cant stop my thoughts. they dont take me to a good place. sometimes they scare me. i want to jump out of my own skin. i see the doc on fri. i need my meds changed.if i make it till then. im tired of faking it to everyone. im really not ok.i have so much trouble talking to people. why cant i tell them im not ok. i want help. i just cant seem tell anyone. im sorry im rambling.

(((((chrise))))
i knowexcatly how it feel...
hope u will get better soon

[turquoisesea]

*hugs*

[sadly_me]

exactly what you described dat how i feel. i wanna crawl outta my skin. i can't sleep...no sleep....da hours just drag on and on and on and on and on...

[madisgram]

hi chrise, i'm so glad you see the doc on friday. hopefully it will make a difference in this struggle you've been having with depression. i an relate to the descriptions you listed like, can't eat, can't sleep, etc. my best description of myself was a sea of blackness with a minutely small dot in all that void that was me. i was so exhausted. i felt like it took all the mental energy i had just to breathe air.
as for not being able to express how badly you feel i hope when you see the doc that you can just let it all out. hang in there, we are all very strong people that deal with depression. how can i say that? well, look at the struggles we endure yet we continue to strive to get better under adversity. don't lose sight of that inner strength you possess. i though my pdoc was nuts when he told me this and later realized it was true about myself. i am a strong person...and so are you! keep us posted. we care about you.

[mountainstream]

(((((((((((chrise))))))))))))