how do i explain it all to my partner

I've been coming to this forum for a few months, often to just sit and watch people talking and joining in occasionally. When i feel particularly down it helps in a way so i don't think about my problems to intensely cos that's when i get myself down the most.
This last week i've had a lot of complications with my home life and it's all messing with my head. I'm so twisted up inside. I'm only half feeling everything and trying to not let myself spiral out of control.
I've done a couple of posts this week for the first time ever and it made me cry a lot but it also touched my heart at the responses that people left. I didn't really realise until now that i'm not really alone.
But since i've been writing on here i'm finding that i can't express my thoughts to my partner as easily. I find it difficult to share with him my thoughts that i have written on here.
I want to share stuff with him but i don't think he'll understand me. Plus i feel tremendous guilt that i always rely on him whenever i'm really down. So i'm trying not to do it so much and yet i want to.
I'm just confussed we're so close and yet i can't express myself clearly to him at the mo.
One minute i'm angry the next i'm upset.
I don't know what i'm doing from day to day.

Hi celeste (I spelled it right this time!) I'm sorry you are having a difficult time right now, I sure understand turmoil. <font color="green">

Perhaps you are sharing stuff here that you really haven't been able to share with your partner... and the level of sharing with your partner reached a limit of trust you aren't able to cross right now?

If you also rely upon him when you want to have fun, and he also shares and relies upon you when he is having a bad day, then it sounds like a pretty balanced relationship. If he expects you to just be there day to day and you leave him alone except for when you are down, then the relationship needs work anyway.

The confusion that arises when we work on ourselves is normal. Therapy (in any form) is WORK. You said you can't express yourself clearly to him at the moment.. try and remember it will pass, this moment... once you work out some things with yourself, once the "crisis" feeling passes, etc... you will be able to share more stuff, again IMO.

Hang in there.