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ok so the otehr day i left a post talking about how my dad said something to me about being depressed and how i freaked out about itand just saying i was fine and telling him to stop. well....i got an email this mornign from him saying all the things he wanted to say but couldnt say. and im once again freaking out....like i have noidea how to respond to this or anything!! ahhhh sorry i just needed to get that out but i stilll just dont know what to do. hes at work right now...i feel weird even having to face him tonight after this i hate my life

sounds like you have a caring dad. is there any reason you are so afraid to tell him you're depressed or something? in you other post i believe you mentioned you were doing some dope. your behavior could have caused him to notice. are you afraid of his knowing this or are you afraid of talking about your moods?
it would help if you could be specific about why you are "freaking out" if you know why. i'm not sure what is going on with you. i hope you can get some help...let us know. we care about you.

i just am not good at expressing myself. inever had a relationship with my parents where i told them stuff. i always kept things to myself and i know the realized this. so its hard for me to open up to them even to tell them that i am depressed and need some help. i am afraid of him knowing i dont want him to worry about me. i want to just deal with it on my own. im happy he does care that really means alot to me. but i just dont feel comfortable talking to my parents about this stuff. i just never though my parents would notice, if anything my dad!! i barely see him hes always at work. but its weird how he can like see through me and see that i am upset. thats why im freaking out. i just dont no what to say or how to handle this without it going in a bad direction.