requiem for madness

i went into see my doc today... for a physical... not fun... he asked me how i felt, i was honest for once. i told him sick, he asked why... so i started to tell him everything that contributed to my feelings of sickness, the madness that runs through my head... the worries of how my life has taken a bad turn... and what would i do.... he interupted me and said "I'm not your therapist, I'm just your regular doctor." Then he walked out... why does this always happen to me?
Maybe the world is so crashed that even those who's minds are not at all, at all.
Jeeze I need to find help... but I have only trusted one therapist... my drug therapist... she's gone now.
And now I'm stuck between two choices, a path that leads to light or one into the drakest corners of my mind. But knowing myself to stay to the light I'm going to need lots and lots of help... but from who?

That was horribly, horribly rude of your doctor, and I'm sorry you had to experience such insensitivity to your troubles. I know it may be difficult to trust people when divulging things that are often very personal, but I would highly recommend seeing another therapist. If you don't feel up to or comfortable with that, however, do you have anyone else you feel comfortable speaking with? Friends? Family? A significant other?

If all else fails, don't ever hesitate to seek help from any of the wonderful, caring people here.

I hope things get better soon.

what an ******!!! i am so sorry you had such an insensitive response. i would be so upset if that happened to me.

i dont know what the system is like over where you are, but i do think it would be a good idea to hunt for a new T. someone who is trained to be able to deal with your stuff, and who can help you get out of this pit.

((iskm12))
This physician is a rectal orifice, and I hope you can find a more professional and caring one to replace him.
It was nothing you did; it is a reflection on him and not on you.
At the very least he could have recommended either a therapist or a psychiatrist...

One trusted therapist? Someone you are seeing now or was it the drug therapist who is no longer available?
Please try and find another one if she is gone.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing, iskm12.
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Cap

(((iskm))) what you did at the doctor's office was right on. what he did was make a fool of himself. (i'm trying to be a lady here) i'd even consider getting another regular doctor. he has no compassion. he lacks empathy. can u imigine being physically sick and him being so ****?
ok back to the topic...yes, finding a new therapist is a very good idea. you need that kind of support and it will help you get your feelings out in a safe place..contrary to your dr.'s behavior. make finding a new therapist a priority and certainly keep us posted on how you're doing. we care a lot....and good for you for at least trying to be heard even tho it was to, as it turned out, tha' wrong guy..

funny things,
funny things,
family you ask.... well my family is kinda what ruined me to an extent i guess... call me crazy... told me I needed to act normal, moved away from them just couldnt take any more of their stuff....
friends you ask... too paranoid to talk to any of them really... big mouths they want to find dirt on me and all i need to do is let them...
as for a significant other, we are having our problems right now, i guess that comes from the fact that we are both schizophrenic.... what can you do though... he listens to me and he helps me a lot but at the moment hes just annoying me... it will pass in time i think, well i know it will, it always does...

Two snaps and a circle honey - it's time to go shopping........for a therapist. Seriously, shop for one. Get a list together of what you're looking for and seek them out.

The regular doc you mentioned has been put on my list of "just give me 30 minutes alone with the donkey buttock". Phooey on the likes of him! Please post how you're doing.

notz

oh yes - i'd definitely be finding a new GP too. i had a doc who was ok, but when it came to mental health stuff was a bit of an *****. so i finally shopped around for a new GP and she's been great! wants to know how my therapy is going, how my pdoc is going, how she can help. it's really good when you have someone you can turn to for *everything*, not just the things they want to deal with.

I'm so sorry that you had to go through this, and they wonder why we don't come back or go at all! IT Just makes me want to weep that some docs can be so insensitive... Please find another doctor... This one is useless, do not blame yourself!

TJ

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way and that your doctor reacted in that way to you. You did the right thing being honest with him and that was extremely rude of him to react in that way. I really encourage you to try to find a Therapist who can help you, and there are people here who can help you. I haven't been member of this site for long but I have already found people to be very caring. I am thinking of you!

so i have kinda been looking for a therapist but then i get all paranoid and have to go home and hide... its not so good... im scared to walk down the street partly because i think someone is watching me but mainly becuase i dont know whats real or not... i would ask my boyfriend to come with me but he needs to sleep during the day, and i dont want to drag him down this path again... i think im begining to hate myself, and the schizophrenia, as for the personalities they dont bother me so much but still i know they are there and i fight them... my never ending battle... sometimes they win and then im lost... perhaps one day i will overcome it all.

I can really relate to you. I had a similar experience with a so-called Psychologist. The psychologist asked me what was bothering me. I told her and started crying. Her words to me were "Get a grip." I'll never forget that experience. I thought she was absolutely callous and decided at that time she was not the right psychologist for me. I left there feeling worse than when I came in. I informed my Primary Care Physician that I would not be seeing that psychologist and told her why. Right now my Primary Care Physician is prescribing my antidepressants to me because of that experience, but when visiting my PCP time is blocked only for medical -- not emotional -- problems. In any case, I know I need to see a psychologist, but I have a problem opening up to someother other than my PCP. I'm also afraid if I really let myself go that I would end up in a mental hospital or some other similar facility.

im sorry that your doc did that to you! what a jerk! but theres always help somewhere you just have to look at the right places. dont give up!

((brephi)) i know how hard it can be opening up to a new psychologist perhaps that is why i procrastinate so much in seeking a new one out... now my excuse as to why i dont or shouldnt find another one is because i want to move... so what would be the point in finding a new one eh?