[Rachie]

Do any of you ever sometimes get a sudden burst of energy and feel happy and are able to laugh and joke around with people, but after an hour so you just go completely downhill and feel even more depressed than you did earlier in the day. This happens to me alot and even at times after ive felt like this i feel guilty aswel. Is this a normal part of depression or could it be something else causing this to happen?

[justfloating]

Rachie,


I know how you feel, and it's the pits!! I feel that way sometimes too. I'll go out with my friends and then after a little while it's like I hit some kind of brick wall, and all the energy leaves me and all I want to do is get home and be by myself. I also feel guilty because this will happen with my friends from high school, who I only see a few times a year, and I feel horrible afterwards for "wasting" the time I had with them. It makes it really tough to be sociable because I suddenly feel really disconnected from the rest of the world.
Do you have a counsellor or a therapist? I found that telling mine about what was happening really helped, and she's been helping me not to worry about it so much and slowly make my way back into proper sociability. Maybe yours could help you too!

[Rachie]

Nah i dont have either at the moment but im looking into it. Also when im in one of these crappy moods i will hide from people when they try and visit me and ill ignore their phonecalls and text messages, mind u they r at my house 24/7 and that in itself is enough to drive me bonkers. They just dont get the hint when i want to be alone....i think this post mite sound a bit jumbled sorry, im thinking about too many things at once.

[Melpomene]

I know how that feels. For me it lasts an hour, a day or a few weeks.

It's sucks.

It's just teasing you with what you could have.

I dunno if I'm glad or not that it's rare.

I'm quite good at coping with people aroudn when I don't want them to be, particularly when I can't get away. I just go through it a moment at a time. I think, out of all the time I have left, this is only a few hours. Then I can be alone. Right now, what can I be doing?

It's also annoying when people ask if you're okay. It's a trick question. If you say 'no' they smother you, if you say you want to be alone they get hurt and if you say you're fine they go on and on about how you don't look Okay.

I'm lucky, we're not phoners. We're texters and MSN messengers. Those are so easy to ignore. I live too far away for anyone to visit me.

Unfortuanately, CBT taught me that we're supposed to try and hang about with people, even when we don't want to ¬_¬.

[Rachie]

Yeah melpomene and just when u think to yourself that you're going to be happy for a while thats when u just go downhill! Ahh i hate it! And yes thats exactly what my friends do too if they ask me if im ok. I dont like telling my friends and boyfriend how im feeling, i tell my bf a little bit but not all of it. I cant even tell the doctor everything too.for some reason i feel more comfortable talking to strangers on the internet. I guess its because u cant see the people judging you when you open up....

[Melpomene]

That's why most people prefer the net.

Most my friends know of my depression. It's jsut that if they know how often I was depressed we'd never have a real conversation! Most of them tiptoe around you for a few hours once they know. There was only Rosie who didn't and she's moved away. And Kate, but I never see her anymore T_T.

Anyway, my point being, I agree.

Definately! I can be so happy, and in the middle of one of those happy periods, I realise I'm in one. Then I slowly start to be less happy.

and if I try to make myself happy, it doesn't work. The best I can do is make myself not sad, and that's basically by thinking about tasks and not in reference to myself. And for now, that's enough. It's better than nothing.

[madisgram]

hey rachie, yes, i've had those moments. my major dx is bipolar with hypomania, so before i got stable with meds, i could swing from the rafters one moment and be in a dark hole the next. i'm what they call a rapid cycler (and that's not on a bike.)
before my diagnosis i could have a really upbeat day...i was productive and happy on those days. (this was unusual for me cause most of the time i was very depressed). i'd go to bed and wake up in the morning severely depressed. it was very confusing cause all i did was go to sleep! so i got frightened when i had a good day cause i knew the "darkness" would be following it.
my T later explained to me that for every "upbeat" there would be an equal (in intensity) "downbeat". i thought how will i ever deal with this? for me meds and therapy helped me to a better, more balanced life.
i hope you can find that balance too.

[Rachie]

Melpomene, do you also find it exhausting having to pretend you're in a good mood just so you dont get asked the 20questions on "whats wrong" and "why wont you talk to us". And when i 'try and make myself happy i usually end up making my self angry, so i cant win either way!

madisgram, your symptoms sound a little bit the same to how i feel. I havent been properly diagnosed with anything, my local doctor just said im suffering from depression and anxiety, gave me some meds and said we will see how you go and if im no better in a month then he will refer me to a psych. So its kinda annoying not knowing exactly whats wrong with me!

[Melpomene]

Originally Posted by Rachie

Melpomene, do you also find it exhausting having to pretend you're in a good mood just so you dont get asked the 20questions on "whats wrong" and "why wont you talk to us". And when i 'try and make myself happy i usually end up making my self angry, so i cant win either way!

madisgram, your symptoms sound a little bit the same to how i feel. I havent been properly diagnosed with anything, my local doctor just said im suffering from depression and anxiety, gave me some meds and said we will see how you go and if im no better in a month then he will refer me to a psych. So its kinda annoying not knowing exactly whats wrong with me!

No, I don't get exhausted but it. Normally because at that point I don't care, I just want them to stop, and it's a relief when they do. If they keep asking it makes me feel guilty.

My friends generally know when to stop asking anyway (Thankfully).

You got meds first? They only gave me meds because i'd already had psychotherapy. Meds with no therapy increases the liklihood of a relapse @_@

*hugs* I do hope the meds help though.

[Rachie]

I hope the meds work 2. They havent really done much but its only been nearly 4 wks but fingers crossed they start working better soon *hugs*