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Mar 02, 2009, 09:54 AM
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I hate the weekends. Work keeps my mind busy and off of things. At home I have to hear my sons constantly arguing and bickering. I have a hard time motivating to fo anything. I even upped my anti-depressant by 10 mgs on the weekends (citalipram 20 mgs.) Even that does not help. Constant reminders of my husband (deceased passed away on 1-6-09). Cry at the slightest things. Even my depression is depressed. Have no one to talk to, cuz no body understands. They think I'm nuts. I think I'm nuts. Husband did not treat me well. I loved him, but my wants and needs were taken away to satisfy him. Last five years of his life he was addicted to meth. Died due to meth. Can't let go. Scared as heck to go on. scared as heck to die. Dealing with an autistic son (16) and a hyper (15 year old son.) All it is is give me give me buy me buy me. Got away with it with my husband cuz he bought them everything. They fight for my attention. I try to give us much as I can. Sheesh they have even resorted back to calling me mommy. Keep asking them if they are having trouble dealing with their dad's death they say no but their actions prove otherwise. Both are more aggressive than normal. I'm constantly walking on eggshells with them. The 16 year old punched a hole in the wall this weekend cuz he was asked to help get my grandkids into the cab. Were living at my mom's house and she is getting sick of him breaking windows, punching holes in walls and slamming doors.
If anything. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest. Me
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Mar 02, 2009, 10:26 AM
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 do u see a thearpist? there is so much going on in your life right now and your children's lives. i'm sorry about the loss of your husband. this event has certainly triggered even more challenges for you. i'm so glad you posted. we can give you support  and know that i do care and that you matter to us. having said that i do believe you would benefit from seeing a therapist to help you untangle all these feelings you have and your boys too. i hope you will keep us posted on how u are doing. hope you will consider my suggestion about therapy. you have so much happening all at once. it can be overwhelming without a support system in place...
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Mar 02, 2009, 10:36 AM
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Welcome to PC!
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. People here are great, smart, and care AND can relate!
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Mar 02, 2009, 04:38 PM
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Thank you both. I don't have any insurance at the moment. Another messed up story from my messed up husband. I must have rocks in my head for loving him. I wish I could see a therapist. Maybe then I can find out this dumb need to have to "fix" and "rescue" people all the the time. At lease today is going good. We are very busy. I decided to take my lunch now. I usually take it at 12:30. I have been trying to find free and sliding fee scale therapists around my area. So far nothing.  I will keep writing. this is my only link to sanity. Again,  both of you. Hope your having a great day! Diane
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Mar 03, 2009, 03:33 AM
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Diane, hello and welcome!
It's definitely a hard time you are going through right now. I'm glad you found our community, and I hope you do keep posting. My daughter is also a survivor of domestic violence. Her ex became addicted to meth, also. She sees a very good therapist through the local mental health clinic. The courts here have advocates for the survivors and can provide guidance to agencies that can help...United Way is an important resource. It would be great if you could find a support group. They are free and have so much information that can help you. My heart goes out to you for so many things! It does sound like your sons would benefit from therapy, also. Jmo, but sometimes we can be so overwhelmed that we cannot see ways to help ourselves. Is there a good friend who you trust to help you? Perhaps a paster/clergy? Please keep posting and let us know how you and your children are doing... We Care I Care Cap
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Mar 03, 2009, 05:23 PM
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You definitely need more support in your life. How about Parents Without Partners - or some other group? Therapists can be great but I wouldn't focus on that too much if you can more readily and cheaply find supportive people to be around. How about Big Brothers for your sons?
Just some ideas. 
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