[skymonk]

I've been depressed&having lots of panic attacks&can't seem to do anything except dig myself into a bigger hole. I think everyone hates me because I'm me&don't know what to do.

[pegasus]

(((((( skymonk ))))))

I'm sorry you are struggling, do you know what is causing the panic attacks? Try and treat yourself to something nice, you are worth it. There's nothing to hate about you. I hope things improve for you soon.

[justfloating]

((((((((((skymonk))))))))))

Sorry it's so rough. Know you've got plenty of support here, and feel free to PM me anytime if you want to talk.

[turquoisesea]

panic attacks are no fun to say the least.
do you have a therapist? That might help if you are able to get access to one.

[kaytibear]

You are not alone. I say this because sometimes it can feel like you are all alone or sometimes there is a lack of supportive people. I am on disability too and often feel alone or like no one understands. I've had panic attacks too and those are no fun.
Try to be gentle with yourself right now because you are hurting and treat yourself to something nice you enjoy like a bubble bath or a warm chocolate chip cookie. It doesn't have to be something big just something that makes you feel good.
A therapist would be helpful to help you deal with all these things if you don't have one already I would suggest getting one.
Hang in there

Kayti

[madisgram]

(((((((SM))))))) sorry to hear you're in a rough slump. panic attacks are often brought on my stressors in your life. is something going on that you are aware of and would feel comfortable sharing with us? and the depression...they often go hand in hand.
jme, i'd suggest you keep a daily journal about how you are feeling, what's bothering you or what's on your mind (like i feel worthless.. because...)and rate your mood just before u write something in the journal. like rating 1 being ok, to 5 being totally overwhlemed and depressed. the other numbers are the in between degrees of feeling good or bad.
what i discovered when i kept a daily journal was that i could see in writing about my feelings and the truths behind the feelings i was having or perhaps a twisted perception of self. then i could better cope with those feelings. like is that really real aabout me? etc. if you see a t, you could share your journal with him too or bring up some of the things you wrote about. this will help give him insight of how to direct your therapy, develop coping skills, and also to help you see if you have a false belief about yourself that runs around in your head and causes the derpession and panic attacks.
i hope this helps you in some way. so glad you posted about this cause keeping it inside just makes it get worse.