Exhausted

Emotionally, I'm feeling so much better. I think that's got a lot to do with my amazing counsellor, who has given me the courage to get a lot of my personal issues sorted out and helped me put my life in perspective.

Physically, I'm EXHAUSTED. I still have no energy or appetite. I realized the other day that I have a limit, like when you're using a vacuum cleaner and you pull it too far, so it unplugs from the wall. I can't work as hard, quickly, or as much as I used to. The end result is the depression sending me to bed for at least 15 hours before I have the energy to get up and try again. And when the physical exhaustion gets the better of me, I find it harder to fight off the depressive thoughts, and I get terrified that I'm never going to be able to crawl out of the hole again. The doctor and my counsellor have said it'll be a slow recovery but... UGH! I hate it that my mind is doing better and my body won't catch up.

I'm tired of this!!!

Sorry, just wanted to vent...

((((((((((((((((((((Rebecca))))))))))))))))))
I know how you feel!! That can be so frustrating... but for now, I'd just allow your body to do what it needs to. I'd also suggest trying to fight off some of that exhaustion and trying to exercise a little--it sounds contradictory, but the endorphins released will actually give you more energy. If you get on a regular schedule of exercise, you might be surprised at how much it helps your body AND mind--best of all, just taking a 15-30 minute walk does the trick!

Overall, though just make sure you're getting enough protein and all that good stuff, be nice to yourself, and take care of YOU. It's wonderful that you're recovering, and I'm so glad to hear you're doing better.

*hugs Rebecca (If I can use that name?)*