[lmg103]

these past couple days i have been seeming to fall apart. i honestly dont know what to do with myself. i get upset over little things. like last night i got in a little fight with my roommate and i started crying and couldnt stop. i just have so much in me that needs to come out...but half the time i dont even know what it is causing me to be so upset.

i am just not happy with how i am right now. the way i look, what i have turned into. i just want the old me back. i just keep repeating this to myself, but not helping SFDGJSKGJFDGFDJHDFHJFDHSFASJK

UGHHHHH what do i do, im so stuck!

[Sad In TX]

You need to get a friend and have them take you to the doctor. You are depressed, and those are classic symptoms. I was the same way about 6 years ago. I wouldn't go out of the house, slept too much and cried whenever I was awake.
I hope you get the help you need, because you do need to get it. Hopefully a friend or family member can take you... will you let me know if and when you do this and how you are doing?

[lmg103]

im already in therapy. but its not helping. things just seem really overwhelming right now.

[jacq10]

(((((((((((lmg)))))))) I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so low. What stands out to me the most is that you just are feeling everything so intensely now and you need to fine a safe and constructive way of letting these feelings be expressed. I think that is great that you allowed yourself to cry the other night. I'm not saying that it felt great, because Im sure it didn't... but it is all part of the healing process.

You say that you want the "old" you back.. that means that the part of you that you're looking for IS in there. Maybe bring this up in session with your T, and he/she can help you find the appropriate way of expressing yourself so that you can feel better


Jacq

[turquoisesea]

How do you deal with your feelings?
How have you in the past?

These questions might be something you need to look at.... trying to find good ways to deal with them will help.

Also, I know talking to the therapist is very difficult, is there any way you can type out something an then bring it to her... that way you can work with your therapist to get some feelings out. At the very least maybe you can ask her some ways of dealing with festering feelings.

Sorry about the disagreement with your roommate - it happens sometimes. I'm glad you can cry, I'm sorry that you do it so much.

sending hugs
~turquoisesea