[dayzee9]

I post to thank you all for "trying to understand" I have stayed w/ this forum & have tried to give old sage advice; because I was Dx'd in 1986. Members seem to feel that since it's been so long, I cannot "relate" Like HELL! Every experience I've read from all of you who are just "starting your journey" is emblazed in my brain!! You're on a long road, you will experience the wind getting knocked out of you; events that will make you want to give up; crawl under a rock; feel like a freak; etc.. confusion, joy, severe depression, clueless,scared as hell, eventually a light at the end of the darkness that you've been used to as "insanity"...putting the pieces of the shattered pot back together......BUT, it takes a lot of TIME!! (and tears)...

My time is up here.....

((((((((((((((((( DAYZEE)))))))))))))))))))))

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((Dayzee)))))))))))) I hope you do not go. I so appreciate your words of wisdom, your encouragement and your use of icons.

I am one of those at the beginning of a ridiculous journey that makes me so crazy that I can't stand it. The confusion, severe depression, scared as hell, feeling like a freak, that's me. Totally and completely.

I hope you stay. But, I understand if you feel you need to go. Take care and I wish you only the best.

[nothemama8]

Dayzee, please stay we likes you and we need you just like you need us
Amy

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((dayzee))))))))))

[kimmydawn]

dayzee, your posts tell me how MUCH you do relate!!!!! i so look forward to your posts and insights!!!! i'm sorry that you have that impression

i think you're the BOMB! you are so supportive and can relate so much. you're so giving here!

i hope you stay.

[RhysMadison]

I don't know how or from whom you got the notion you don't understand just 'cos you are 'old'. Please realize that you are dealing w/ others who are very 'moody' (an understatement). People say things they don't mean. For the most part, we're all on a different journey. Whether it be 50 years Dx'd or 50 min. ago, we're all diss.
Please don't go. I'm sure nobody would make you stay but don't let a few people who got under your skin ruin the good support you give & get here. Notice I said 'give' meaning YOU give support too. Also try to remember when you were first Dx'd, sometimes we are just not ready to hear some things.
Love,
RhysMadison

[Monty_girl]

((((((((((((((((((((( DayZee ))))))))))))))))))
I hope you change your mind and stay. I really enjoy talking with you. It's nice having someone here that has been thru somethings already and can help us all out. And I really enjoy having you here. Monty

[dayzee9]

(((((((((wantotheal)))))))))))))))

A lot of the younger people just being dx'd; I don't feel they take me seriously when I say "I REALLY DO UNDERSTAND EXACTLY!!" It's like "Yeah,sure" For you to be a little older, maybe I CAN still be of some help....I kept journals during all those years and I have all of the raw emotionals, fresh as yesterday
And
being an psych nurse who's also MPD/DID, I just felt I could do a lot in this forum. But I once again, feel like I'm on
"standing at the outer ring" of a younger group & my experiences aren't worth

I felt like a could offer alot, but maybe I don't have that "Midas Touch" Besides, I couldn't deal with the excessive prattle about root canals!

MPD/DID is a MAJOR life dissociation/tearing experience, people! Or has it just become another "fad" dx like back in the late 70's (sorry, some of yu were notyet born then)

Lost in my Life Mission to Heal(((((DAYZEE))))))))))))))

[nothemama8]

Sweetie you are not that old, remember I'm 55 body age, 24-Reah's age, 12-Laura's age, and Amy is 7 , so that makes us = 98 years old
Angie

[kimmydawn]

dayzee, i'm 42...not much looks "old" to me anymore. i think you're FABULOUS!

Dayzee,

I'm not sure what you mean by standing at the outer ring of a younger group.

I feel badly if you offered your support to someone younger and more newly dx'd than you and they were less than receptive. Ya gotta get back up in that saddle gal!

Personally I find the root canal prattle to be helpful as I am dental phobic and find it very hard to stay present while in the chair or to be able to voice anything. I find the input from others is helpful to me to better understand what others have been through and what ideas may be useful for me for next time I'm in that situation.

Sure there are folks in this forum that were born after the late seventies but that doesn't make their experiences any lesser than yours.

I know you have a lot to offer and that's why I said I was glad there was another old timer here to offer perspective. The great, and sometimes frustrating, thing about these forums is that often what we're feeling is a projection of our own stuff up onto others. I know you're a psychRN who also deals with your own disorders so you have a very unique perspective to offer. Not everyone is receptive at first or sometimes ever.

The forum guidelines at the top of this forum state: This is a support forum, so discussion about whether or not DID or other dissociative disorders exist are not appropriate here. Please refrain from calling DID a fad dx as that can be hurtful to those seeking support here.

I'm sorry that you have lost your life mission to heal as you wrote. Maybe taking some time for yourselves would be helpful to recharge your batteries? I know a lot of people come to these forums and burn themselves out by trying to 'be there' for as many as they can while letting their own care slip.

You've been a member here just under five weeks. Give it a bit more time if you are willing. Or if this is your time to move on then I'm sorry that your time here wasn't more satisfying for you. I sure am glad you stopped through.

Take care and healthy wishes for you all.

[misty]

Dayzee please stay!!!!!! You don't have to do anything you don't want but it is nice to know there are those who have experianced more. I was dx'd with DID about 6 years ago. Some times I do not like to admitt that DID is for real and I tend to disapear but when I read your post I felt so obligated to ask you to stay.

[misty]

maybe obligated not the right word but sence the urgency.

[kimmydawn]

larks, well put. i feel the same way. i was really enjoying posts, information and everything!

kd

[nothemama8]

Hey Dayzee, looks like the vote is unanimous you got to stay, we want you here
Angie

[RhysMadison]

I have to make sure this isn't directed towards me as I am the one who started the root canal deal.
Did I offend anybody? Prattle is babbling, idle chat... I was hoping & didn't think it was. We (this we I'm referring to the people here, not my alters) tend to ramble on in here 'cos sometimes we can't find the right words.
If somebody would clear this up, I'd appreciate it. I don't want to hurt anybody.
Love,
RhysMadison

Sweetie,

If this forum wasn't here for us to prattle or babble I wouldn't have much reason to be on these forums as this is the majority of what I contend with daily in my mental struggles.

I too am often at a loss for words to best express what it is I'm trying to convey. I like the ramblin' atmosphere as it allows for the thoughts to fully take form and the words to make more sense.

one hopes anyway.....

[kimmydawn]

i really, for the life of me, can't understand why a root canal thread would be at issue for rambling. my goodness, a dentist visit for almost any dissociator i know is quite the awful experience. if i were having one, i'd have posted like 5 times by now! serioiusly!

i think that's a huge and valid discussion for this forum. there was nothing inappropriate or babbling about it. it's a very serious issue to me and to the poster.

i'm confused as to where the root canal thread was a issue. i thought it a very valid thread, and i learned alot...

kd

[Mahali]

Dayzee,

Is this really a case of old vs. new? I don't understand this. Not that it is a contest by any means but I was diagnosed a very long time ago. I have worked very hard to get to wear I am now and I have been very successful. I don't want to disallusion anybody BUT there are days/weeks when I still crash and burn, it seems. This does not make me "new" to this fight. It makes me normal, in my opinion.

I understand there are people who are just starting the fight and I too remember how hard this was.

I personally have no problem going to the dentist. This does not mean that other people here don't. I can get a physical too but others struggle with this. Yet I can trigger watching a Tom and Jerry cartoon and I am sure many people here have no problem with children's cartoons. We are all where we are on this road. Not one step further or one step back.

Some advice is offered to me and it is valuable and useful. Other advice does not help me but may help others. It is all well intentioned.

I believe it was Monty who said in a post once "We are all in this together." (If I am wrong I apologise) This is how I feel. We have to stick together and stand and support one another.

I hope you can and will stay. This particular forum has always been very supportive and I hope it can stay that way.

Take care.

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[dayzee9]

TGIF, folks!

I am posting today d/t the numberous replies that I have received from you, my fellow DIDers of All ages...

I came so close to literally cashing it in yesterday..the closest I've felt in awhile. We haven't been taking good care of ourselves lately

We felt we had nothing else to offer you all or the world for that matter....that's how it "does get BETTER! " Shortly after I was was Dx'd, I just went out & ODed w/o a second thought! That's how "crazy" (pardon the pun ) and "dangerous" this Dx can be. I've got the cigarette-burned 100% forearms to tell the stories of my journeys through this totally insane "Life of Many" It will be very scary, baffling, etc....but if you all still want a "Veteran Survivor (but still fighting)"
around & make me work for my space on these forums........

Thank you...we'll hang out for a little longer ( I will very often use the word "we", I've "earned that right" & the 9 stands for how many there are in our "happy" family!

With much Love ((((DAYZEE9))))))))

"Still Crazy After all these Years" --- Paul Simon

[Mahali]

Dayzee9,

I am very glad you are staying and we can always use a "veteran survivor."

Glad to have your support, experience, and insight.

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