 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Jun 07, 2009, 09:06 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
right now im so numb i wonder why i do what i do an try ta keep myself an everyone else in good shape that i dont think bout keepin me in shape...there must b somethin wrong with me lately cuz i dont keep myself up...i do an do an do for everybody an i dont get nothin in exchange...its like im just here doin time...like im in a jail or somethin...that is how it feels...but i donno how ta change it or fix it or get outa this way of thinkin...do ne of u feel thata way an how do u get outa the same kinda thinkin day after day after day???????????????
abbi 
__________________
True love exists when we lose ourselves to invest in the care of others. |
|
#2
Jun 08, 2009, 02:10 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
abbi
Would you be able to get together and do something nice for you soon? H.
__________________
 “Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind.” Albert Einstein |
 Jewels
|
|
#3
Jun 08, 2009, 02:16 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
dear abbi,
in some places inside of me they feel better if we think about others and they do give and give until they "give out" and go splat kaboom. then we get really sad because people around us don't seem to give but only take. i think one big struggle in being multiple is balance. we are not so good at that because we have so many points of view and so many different needs and agendas. you sound sad and i feel sad with you. maybe you need to do something for yourself if they don't see you and give to you. most all people struggle with selfishness at times and people can get so used to us giving to them that they forget to give back. that hurts me when it happens to me. it happened to me yesterday. i tried to give my husband support and he snapped at me and was unkind. grr. i don't seem to remember to ask him how he would like me to help. he's got job scaries going on and that is really scary when you're getting older in the job market. i'm getting rambly and need to stop and get off cos it's late. maybe you could do something fun for a while tomorrow. it is important to take care of yourself. hugs from me if they would help!  leslie and her pixies
__________________
  HEALING HAPPENS
|
| Hunny, Jewels
|
|
#4
Jun 08, 2009, 01:00 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I've felt that way.
One thing that I find helps for me is to break the pattern. Trapped feeling comes from repetition so much of the time - maybe you could break the cycle just a little bit and feel little bit better.
__________________
 Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself. |
| Hunny, Jewels
|
|
#5
Jun 09, 2009, 06:53 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
well we tried ta do the right thing an went out an did 5 loads of laundry yesterday ta break the repetitiveness of our actions an all it got us was a very hurtin body an lotsa anxiety that we donno how ta handle right now...the things we do lately for riddin ourselves of our anxiety isnt workin an we hafta take our xanax right now so we dont wig out completely an do somethin we havent done in a long long time...sorry...gotta go take it...
abbi
__________________
True love exists when we lose ourselves to invest in the care of others. |
|
#6
Jun 09, 2009, 07:01 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Abbi How about baking? Have you tried writing anything (poem, short story, music) or reading a subject you have some interest in? That may help distract you. The physical exercise helps me in the moment of major anxiety, but my anxiety returns as soon as I'm back into my situation. Usually, less intense though. best wishes!  Shez |
| Hunny
|
|
#7
Jun 09, 2009, 10:13 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
shezbut - I like baking too it helps me alot sometimes =) Jewels, keep trying , I know it's hard, sending hugs...
__________________
Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself. |
| Jewels
|
|
#8
Jun 10, 2009, 11:15 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
God, i wonder why it seems we try to do good things an get cut down over an over again...
an people expect us ta b like them an look like them an act like them but we cant...we just cant... if they cant see beyond our thin hair...our toothless mouth...our larger size...then what the hell do they expect us to be...we r who we r...an while we cant be who and what they want us ta b...we r our own person...many inside wonder why we even hang around...an still others wonder why b alive at all... so much stress...so little time ta get ourselves together...an we dont wanna b here...but yahna says NO ta tryin ta od or any other way of gettin outa here...but she din say we hadda stay an take it from others...an she din say we couldn numb ourselves out so we din hafta feel things... so if we dont reply right away u all will know we r numbin out...we will b back...someone will b out takin care of us while we cant...we hope u understand...nobody else does... crys
__________________
True love exists when we lose ourselves to invest in the care of others. |
|
#9
Jun 10, 2009, 11:36 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
(((((((((((((((((( Jewels ))))))))))))))))))
__________________
|
| Jewels
|
|
#10
Jun 11, 2009, 06:40 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Crys,
We will wait for you... Hunny 
__________________
“Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind.” Albert Einstein |
| Jewels
|
|
#11
Jun 12, 2009, 11:44 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
((((((Jewels))))))
I am so sorry you are feeling the way you are. I can understand your feelings and you have a right to feel the way you do. But we care very much about you. We do not want you to not be around. We know that feeling because right now we are feeling the same way, but that would let them win and I know you have fought too hard and too long to let that happen. I know the feeling of giving and giving until you feel you are so empty that you are just being walked on but know that we are reaching right now and giving back to you the love and caring that you have given to us. We love you very much and we want you here with us. You give us a lot of hope at times when we are lost and you say to us many things that help us. We so appreciate you for the time and words that you give here. Take time for yourself Jewels, write. I don't know if you write poetry but I know that that helps us. When the world closes in we take time to just write it out whether here or in our journal. It really helps. It doesn't matter Jewels what you look like, you are beautiful to us. It is what is inside that counts and what you write in support shows me your beauty, it doesn't matter what the world thinks. Know that you matter to us and we care about you. Know we all understand and we will be here when you come back. Know you are supported and loved. Gentle hugs are being sent your way, .dps |
| Jewels
|
|
#12
Jun 14, 2009, 01:02 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Jewels))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
BB
__________________
 |
| Jewels
|
|
#13
Jun 15, 2009, 08:12 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
painfully here...
i dont see a release anytime soon... why cant people just leave me alone... and why cant they see the pain they leave on my heart...
__________________
True love exists when we lose ourselves to invest in the care of others. |
|
#14
Jun 16, 2009, 02:36 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
sending hugs
__________________
Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself. |
|
#15
Jun 16, 2009, 03:56 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
(((Jewels)))
|
| Jewels
|
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
