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Old Jun 16, 2009, 04:45 PM
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MandaLynn (ya'll know her as "little Manda") is spoiled little brat who needs to be punished for what she has done to me.
She has been spoiled by the host for far to long which leaves no time for me to do what I need to do.
It's always all about MandaLynn, MandaLynn, MANDALYNN!!!!!
Stupid child!!!!! I must punish her!!!!



~ Karen

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Old Jun 16, 2009, 05:50 PM
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Karen...settle down a little...little children should never be punished...can you tell us what she has done so we can help you feel better? we are sorry you are feeling so angry...and we want to help you...can you put into words what you need and how you think we can help you fix things?

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Old Jun 16, 2009, 06:05 PM
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the host doesn't like me. She treats me like pond-scum just because I have issues that I don't how to deal with and I chose to deal with them be self harming. I mean, really, is that so bad? I hate myself!!!! That is why I do it. I do it to punish myself. I do so I will feel as much physical pain as I do emotional.
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Old Jun 16, 2009, 06:15 PM
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im sorry u r feelin so ashamed that u need ta self harm...an yes, it IS so bad...u not only hurt urself but u hurt the host body an compromise everyone else inside...Karen, i believe that u can find other ways of gettin ur needs met than self harm...i know that u hate urself...but i know too that self harm isnt the answer...we have one that usta self harm because she hurt so much inside...we helped her find ways of dealin with her issues without hurtin the rest of us...as to manda treatin u like pond-scum...that may not b the real way that she sees u...but in ur state that is the way u see her treatin u...it comes cuz u r angry at what u r goin thru an u think that no one else can know or the secrets will come out an u will b seen as a bad girl...mandalyn isnt a bad girl...an she is just as necessary in ur system as u r...an wouldnt it hurt u ta know that u hurt her by usin self harm to make u feel somethin other than nothin? i know...i went thru that...but lemme tell u that when i was able ta b heard an people werent always dumpin on me that i was able ta see my issues in a different light...an i want u ta promise me that u will try ta figure out different ways ta make ur needs met without self harmin urself...cuz it affects every single person that lives with u...not just urself...we would b happy ta pm u or u can pm us ne time u need ta...

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Old Jun 16, 2009, 07:18 PM
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My heart aches!!!! Goddess it hurts so bad!!!!
I need to do it!!! The host is fighting me and MandaLynn is crying!!!

~ Karen
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Old Jun 16, 2009, 07:24 PM
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(((((((((((((((((((Karen))))))))))))))))))))))

NO, you don't NEED to do it...you WANT to do it because you know no other way of releasing the tension, the pain, and the fear you have in your heart...but...SI is NOT the way to handle that kind of thing...take a deep, DEEP breath, release it, and allow yourself to go over to Mandalyn and start to comfort her...not scare her...ask her if she would like to hold your hand so that she is not so afraid of you...and ask her if she would like to help you color a picture...and then draw a picture and color it with her...and then try to find a journal and journal your feelings...use whatever method you know how to get the point across...drawing, coloring, painting, writing...the method doesn't matter as long as you can get it out and down on paper so that you can take it to your T so she can help you figure out ways to safely let things out...you ARE an important part of this system, Karen, and you NEED to be heard too...but Manda can't help you if she doesn't know the why's and wherefore's of your pain...we are here to pm if you need to...

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Old Jun 17, 2009, 02:31 PM
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Dear Karen,
I am so sorry your heart aches like this. I know the feeling.
I agree with Jewls-make friends with little Manda, not emimies. I know from experience that you feel better when you have a young child, or anyone, look up to you. I feel like I got 'healed' pretty well last Monday in a session with our T. aAthough the pain will lesson, it will never go away compleatly. you just have to be strong.
We are friends to you.
Erik
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Old Jun 17, 2009, 04:28 PM
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can this have a trigger icon please?
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Old Jun 17, 2009, 08:40 PM
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Karen...I hope you are feeling better now...you may always pm me if you need to talk...I also have an insider that understands about how you are feeling more than I do...please ask for her if you need to...her name is LEAH.

Yahna
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Old Jun 17, 2009, 11:26 PM
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Hey Manda, Karin, and MandaLynn...

Just checking in and letting you know that we're here for you.

Do try to be gentle with yourselfs!!

When do you get to go see your T, or are you already seeing them?

See ya!!
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Old Jun 18, 2009, 06:07 PM
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When do you get to go see your T?
Well I'm really sure. When we were in the hospital this last time, they set me up an appointment at the the Mental Health Clinic (where I had told them I've already been to do all the preliminary stuff; I was waiting to see my actual therapist there)... but on my discharge papers from the hospital it said my appointment was with INTAKE... I don't know what that means...

~ Manda
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Old Jun 18, 2009, 06:13 PM
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