how do you deal with new diagnosis?

I cannot find a psychiatrist but i know i have DID. My first diagnosis was borderline personality disorder. They later gave me ptsd meds because of night terrors. But i want to know how to deal with this. I didn't even know what was happening. i check my checkbook and it is overdrafted and i dont remember buying things. I have some alters with unhealthy behaviors. I am just scared. I finally know there is more than me and we have been switchnig rapidly sometimes. It is tiring. Maybe some of you know some things that can help. i feel out of control. I am scared and i never know when or who is gonna come out. we went to the doctor and someone must've coe out. you know why? it was cuz they looked at us like we was crazy. an i didnt even know. i jus thought why is you looking funny at me. we are all scared. anyone have advice or a good and helpful book for tools. im already in therapy. have been for years but i never would have thought this. i alos think we have somatoform. but cannot be sure until the last tests say nothing is wrong. we went and ahd every test ran this year. and evry test says i am normal. Anyone got some helpful tips of what helps them? i sure would appreciate it.

There are good books on Amazon.com. I would avoid some of the more graphic personal account books like Sybil and When Rabbit Howls. They are very triggering to some people. There are books like "Got Parts?" and those books help explain things without getting into graphic details about things. This is all I can think to suggest. Hope things get better soon.

Leslie

Hello,

It is not uncommon to be diagnosed Borderline before you get a DID diagnosis. I guess I am a little unclear about your diagnosis. Did your mental health professional diagnose you? If you are looking for resource material the very best book I have come across for DID or what once was called MPD is by Frank Putnam. You can get it on Amazon, but it is a bit pricey, however, it is worth it.

I wish you well. Continue to work with your health care provider, they really are the best source of information.

well i am not officially diagnosed. my story is long. however my hubby knows it. I talk to him as other people. he noticed. i would say something and not remember. he would hold me for two hours and then get up to go to work and i asked him why he never held me. It makes him angry. today we went to the clinic and talk to prescribing rn. i asked for zoloft because it helped me in the past and she kept saying she would only give me an antipsychotic that i hurt myself on. i told her no zoloft worked for me. they wrote the wrong diagnosis in the charts and they wont fix it and it is messing everything up. i know my mental health records say borderline. even my disability paperwork does. then i say it is misinformation and she says" so what do you THINK you are diagnosed with?" I told her it is not me thinking. i know what im diagnosed with. then she goes back to wanting to put me onmeds that i told her were detrimental I started getting irritable then because i was irritated she said i was irrational. I dont want to say the rest. we got ourselves a psychiatrist now but cannot see them fo another month. i hope he listens. i hope he is good. i wish someone would listen to me. my ptsd is intense and worse and i know zoloft helps. i dont want to go through it all my life history and mental health history. I guess getting one of those books or both might help. money is tight right now. truth is when i was on the antipsychotics they made me psychotic. no meds ever seemed to help. zoloft however took away the hallucinations. but i think they were flashbacks. unsure i am really tense and scared, and alone. i dont really have .anyone. im so scared. i have had several traumatic events within the last two weeks. i dont know what to do i am even afraid i will offend someone here. i am scared. and my memories coming back aren't so nice either. im so scares. im so scared