[Fox]

For a while now I haven't been sleeping when I think I'm sleeping, but I've noticed if I stay up until past midnight, sometimes 1 or 2 in the morning I don't dissociate as much though my dreams are much more intense. Okay this isn't making sense lemme try again.

I've been making myself stay up past midnight for the past two weeks now (it's 1am right now and worried cause I have to be up at 8am) and I've noticed I'm not dissociating. I lose track of time but it's just me being distracted with facebook and gaiaonline not me becoming a little and coloring on the walls at all hours of the night. Now, I may be me more during the night hours and I sleep a lot better once I go to bed but on the flip side I don't function at all before 10:30am and I don't know what happens between 10:30am and 4pm (I go to work at 4pm). So I don't know which is worse not sleeping when I think I am or not being mentally here when I need to be.

Anyways I was wondering does anyone else have a similar issue or have had it and if so what they are doing/have done for it?

[WePow]

Safe Fox hugs!! That would be hard. I did have a problem with someone - now I know it was my teen - getting up alot at night. I had to resort to knocking us all out with dramamine. I told my T and he suggested I research 5HTP as an option. So I started taking that a month ago and I think it is really working well for the sleep stuff and the depression stuff as well !!!

[Hunny]

Fox,

Since you work the afternoon shift, it doesn't seem all that surprising to me that you stay awake till 1am or 2am and aren't up till 10:30am. Or do you work less than 7 hour shilfts? It's kind of like day shift workers getting home from work at 6PM and staying awake for a few more hours till sleep time. Not too surprising. I don't think you are doing anything out of the ordinary. It is considered shift work.

I have a sister, who when she worked afternoons, got home at 11pm and she would mill about making a snack of whatever till 12:00am to 2am and want to talk sometimes. Going to sleep and getting up at the times you wrote about seem okay sort of, in your case.

Perhaps the dissociation may or may not be related to this.

[Fox]

Thanks WP and Hunny and Anderson for reading this

@WP hmm I'm kinda leery about drugs I'm not sure why anymore. I just am scared of them. Right now it's not an option since I don't have money or insurance. But I'm going to try to keep in mind that it will be an option if that ever changes. I feel really . . . I don't know. I just know that the thought bothers not just me but some others inside. I hope by the time I have the money we'll all be okay with at least just trying it.

@hunny I work from 4pm until 7pm only and three days a week. But maybe you're right. But I do try to go to bed at about 10 usually before my experiment and that's when things go bump in the night and I find out it was me later xD