[kimmydawn]

too many memories. i asked for them. i asked the questions. i'm being given what i asked for, but i didn't know what i was asking for. i promised i'd give them the respect they deserve. it's just too much. i need a break from it. i don't know how we survived. it's all too much to see at one time.

(((((((((kimmydawn))))))))))
Take your time.
Be good to yourself.
Know that you are cared about.

[misty]

((((((((((((((((kimmydawn)))))))))))))))))))) My T helped when too much was coming up. There are things that I just could not handel seeing. They are in a locked chest for now. It is ok to take a break. Could your T help?
lrks

[Kathyanita]

Kimmydawn'

your right it is too much. i know how it gets almost like a physical assault to be invaded with all that in your head at once. In this forum i had the flashbacks to 77 but i want to tell you there was a reason for it. . . first it was time and it was safe enough that it could happen- but also the %#@&#! was wrapped in the youthfull strength and and anger i was going to need dealing with my fathers death- so if youre being allowed to see more then for some reason some good qualities are riding in with the horror- because they come attatched you know. . .just try to trust it as defensive overall and ultimately beneficial and good news that its safe enough to have allowed it in. im speaking for myself and trying to relate hope about something highly personal that no one can know but hope all goes well for you all.

[kimmydawn]

thank you (((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))

kd

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((larks))))))))))))))))))) thank you. i may have to call him.

be safe,

kd

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((ozzie)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

thank you,

kd

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((wi))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

thank you,

kd

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((kathyanita)))))))))))))))))) thank you so much. it's nice to know that i'm not alone in my experiences.

kd

kd
keep yourself safe. we are starting to remember things too. lots of talking among us. lots of mind pictures and noise. i empathize and give you big hugs, i know that is what i want when all of it comes flooding (tsunami like) in. i have discovered Anyia who calms us down. makes us breathe and tells us we are safe. sometimes it's easy to believe, other times i think i'd rather tell her to breathe from someplace else know you are thought of and hugged ((((((((((((((((KD)))))))))))))))))))))
w_i

you are not being swept away by the river

you are OF the river

the river flows around and through you

less fighting and more acceptance and you'll be just there as part of this river...............not someone strugging against the strength of the current.

go with the flow

the process isn't one that is set up to cause more pain.....ultimately understanding comes from the scary stuff.

zh- what you wrote really hit me. i came back from T and was all stirred up with stuff really hurting and flying around. i came really close to falling back on an old coping skill of throwing up. decided to sit down at putter with the glass of water before i proceeded and read your post. even though it was for kimmydawn, it sure helped get me thru till we got pulled back together
wi

[Mahali]

((((( kd ))))

My friend. I wish I could offer up some wonderfull words to help you. Please just know that we are here for you as you have always been for us.

take care of you.

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[kimmydawn]

i am soooooooo sorry that i dropped this thread! my apologies to all responses. i couldn't look at it for a bit. i hope you understand.

i've been able to put some distance between me and the memories and feelings. however, i have to try to maintain a safe distance while keeping them close to absorb. it's a balancing act that i've never been able to master, and i'm trying so hard.

thank you again! be safe,

kd

[(JD)]

try to remember to tell yourself... you are safe now, these things are not happening now.... ((((hugs))))))

[wisewoman]

Kimmy, I do not know how the acceptance happens. Over and over and over again we must see the pictures and tell the stories from a safe place. I hear you and I am thinking about you.

[Mahali]

No worry kd. You do what is safe for you. We will be here for you always.



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