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Apr 07, 2010, 09:48 PM
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We have been sad and alone because the ones that we trusted took the word of someone that had a Ph.D. after his name. This person was only out to get a story about how a person with DID/MPD could not recover and he was right with his wonderful help and tutoring those around us to use our triggers to prevent us from healing. Did make our healing take longer then it should have. The odd part is that his family goes to the church That has accepted us. Maybe not all of them but enough people in the church saw my/ our pain and did choose to help us to feel safe. The people that make comments about our invisible friends are his family and close friends.
---------------------------------------------------------------------- Last Sunday, we were all prepared for them to jump us with all the patronizing crap that they have given us this past year. It has always been the pastor and a couple of others that have made them give us safe space they may have not been able to silence their tongue but just the fact that they kept them physically away from us meant a lot to us even to Shadow. On this day we had a breakfast gathering and the women that have issues with us said their words but when our friends arrived it was like the sun shinning in. We sat with these people and talked they finely asked us why we (the ones there) were so afraid of them we told them a story about a time that our bio father took us to the bank and we saw a man with enough power get his money without photo idea. We left it un said but this man was one of my fathers customers. It was at that time we realized that no matter what we said no one would protect us. This was before we were taken from him. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ These men and women did not really say any thing but they let us know that at that time they would protect us. I guess it started a chain reaction because now more of the ones we trusted before are starting to come and sit besides us and let us get to know them again for who they really are instead of the BS that the PH.D. person told them to separate us. It is sad that a person can have that much control and not see the harm that he has caused. But the cool part is that the others are starting to realize our memoir is not based on our location or what we are doing. We truly have a group memoir that is growing with each alter that is being allowed to heal and become a part of the whole. We have been sounding off about all the bad stuff. We wanted you to know why it has been so hard for us to leave. These people that were helping us before are those that under normal circumstance do choose to feed their White Wolf. But because of the stories told to them and the fact that they naively fallowed the words and lies of one who does not believe in DID/MPD. It not only almost destroy me but my sons life to. If this continues like this then my prayers that we have an equal but opposite life form that abusive times just may happen. WE say the prayer for all those here to.
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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Apr 08, 2010, 12:42 AM
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((((((( Anderson ))))))))
Do take care. Hunny
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Apr 08, 2010, 12:56 AM
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((((anderson))))
Thank you for sharing. Know that we care and are here for you always. I am proud of you and the work all of you are doing. Please know that we are always your friend. We care and we are hearing you. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.  dps  
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Apr 09, 2010, 10:45 PM
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Thank you both DPS and Hunny,
We are still on the inner roller coaster. Even though we known most of what this alter shared it is like going through it all over again. Even though we thought we had moun the past this alter had kept a seperate batch of feeling of what we had gone through not just the past few years but from early child hood to.. But the main feeling was that we tried all these times and no matter what we did we could not prove that we remember fact when not ingured. To say that we felt like falures would be puting it mildly. This time it was like a life reviuw. You know your life flashing before your eyes. Feeling all the pain all over again. It was hard on us all. But this time it was easer even with our caotitic memiors for the simple fact this time we could come here even with our deleted post helped us not to feel so alone. And no afense to PC but even the deletion did not bother us for the simple fact that the pain that those alters dumped alowed us to be able to go to a church that we thought that we would be hurt from some members. It is werid that when you come to a point in your life that few accept you that you are even willing to go to the few places that even just a few will accept you. The hows and whys of the universe at times we do not understand. But now that we do not feel so alone we are able to spend time with those that we are starting to trust again and just be able to tell those that have hurt us to leave us alone. But as most of you are aware of that goes with whos out and who is pushing our button.  LOL life is never boring is it?
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson
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Apr 10, 2010, 07:21 PM
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(((((((((((((((anderson)))))))))))))))
im sorry you r goin thru such deep sorrow an pain...know that we r here should u need a warm blanket to cuddle up with, or a pookie bear to hug, or warm tea or hot chocolate to warm you up inside... u r our inspiration anderson...thru ur writings an ur honesty, we are finding out that we r stronger than we think...an we can help others who r goin thru similar things in their lives... i pray that you will find rest tonight...some sense of peace within that you havent had in a while...we r here...we understand...an we care...stay safe while you go thru this time because we know u r strong an can make it...we offer you all we have...an hope that it is enough... peace be yours tonight... jewels 
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Apr 10, 2010, 08:28 PM
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((((((Jewels))))))) thank you for this it helps us tooo.
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson
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Apr 10, 2010, 09:50 PM
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(((((((((((((((((( anderson ))))))))))))))))))))))
We are sending you tons and tons and tons of safe hugs!!!!! |
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Apr 13, 2010, 04:22 PM
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That PhD guy reminds me of someone...oh yeah! Hitler.
It makes us very angry when people use their so-called knowledge and ill-gotten power to grind us down, using none other than those we once loved and trusted. That's what emotional abuse is all about. I'm sorry you're going through this, but glad you can turn to us .
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"When the people of the world all know beauty as beauty, There arises the recognition of ugliness. When they know the good as the good, There arises the perception of evil. Therefore Being and non-Being produce each other." "Suffering produces perserverance; perserverance, character; and character, hope." |
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Apr 15, 2010, 11:39 AM
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson
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Apr 20, 2010, 06:53 AM
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read your stuff anderson--you are creative and offer much (your myspace too)--if i am online and you want to ... your contact is welcome--if you don't mind sifting thru a little bipolarness and a side of schizoaffective--liked your writing...
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Apr 20, 2010, 02:13 PM
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(((((tim999))) all are welcomed and no we like all shape and sizes. We are internally quite colorfull people.
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson
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