[WePow]

Ok guys, here is the deal. I think that I am finally in control of most all the parts. Most of the trauma work is now done. And I am working on the final issue and I think that will be done in a few days. Yippie!

The question I have is about a part of me that I can only refer to as the Silent One. I have always felt it... not a personality like the other alters. It is kinda like robot mode. But it is still not me and the other alters say it is not them either. I am always on the outside watching myself from a distance when the Silent One is out.

Silent One I now believe might have been the part of me that participated in the things the rest of me could not do. It is a very cold feeling. And it never ever has said a single word or even whispered a thought. There is no love or hate there at all. There is no anger and no fear.

Do you guys have any idea if this is an alter or not?
How do you communicate with it? Or do you?
How do you trust yourself to not have it come out and harm you?
All advice is greatly appriciated!

[writingwithink]

WePow, congrats on your progress. I've been reading about it since I started visiting last year.

Regarding the "Silent One": I have a section of parts that are usually very silent but have such an impact on me and others. It's almost like they have/are an energy force that extends out and directs. I'm still a little curious about them, but it's fairly amazing. It sounds, though, like you are concerned about potential harm. In my situation, there is only one that I'm aware of that considers harm; it's one that holds remorse over all the negative deeds committed by me/us. I'm sure this doesn't help you much, but I might suggest that you give equal consideration to the idea that perhaps it's a helper, if you will.

Peace,
writing

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Wepow))))

Not really sure that anyone can answer that for you but you. Within we have one who calls herself Silence. She has never spoken a word but she writes and has been the one to break through those that kept us so. She seems to know a lot and she informs of things happening within. When things were getting really bad recently she stepped forward and wrote a little note that simply said "don't let her die".

She stepped forward just recently and until then I knew nothing of her. She is silent except for her words which speak volumes of what is taking place and she is anything but silent in what she knows. Somehow I feel she is connected to Echoes who also has been silent except through their words that have began to open a door that we have not ever entered.

Those silent ones are the ones that seem to hold some pretty important and key pieces for me. They had to take it and hold it as it was not permented to have those feelings, emotions, or even some of the memories until it was safe and okay. They seem to know what is there and they had very important jobs throughout. They have not spoken a word yet, and not sure they will except through writing where they let out so much.

So I do not know if that helps you. For me they are there and they are part of myself. Almost like splintered pieces that somehow go together. When they are out there seems to be some kind of push that I cannot be there not as of yet anyways. They are very questioning and deep. They want to be sure it is safe and they ask questions as for trusting reasons. All those within have asked questions all along, but the silent ones seem to go deeper and hold the deeper things.

I hope you continue to find the answers my friend. Know that we are here for you and we care. You have done awsome work----all of you. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Sending gentle hugs and loving thougths. Always.

dps

[Hunny]

Hi, WePow(s) and Slient One:

Silent One may be an alter or not but for sure it is you being aware and I am here for you (all).

By the nature of your questions I would concur with the others that it is something for you to be curious and watchful of. When you say you are: "always on the outside watching myself from a distance when the Silent One is out", it does sound rather like a dissociated part that had to be somewhat numb and silent in order to protect or at least 'be aware' of what was happening in order to maintain who you are.

The communication may need to be non-verbal and non-written which makes it difficult needless to say. How do thoughts come to you, WePow? How I knew about this distance is quite unbeknowst to myself, I drew myself on the side of a large wooden crate. I was rather shocked to see me embedded in the wall of the crate but I came to understand it was necessary at the time. It was safe.

Our minds are wonderful things and I know I am preaching to choir on this matter. You maintained your life! Your mind is strong and good and I believe you will work this out and get to the bottom of it.

I am here for you.

All the best to you.

Hunny

Originally Posted by WePow

Ok guys, here is the deal. I think that I am finally in control of most all the parts. Most of the trauma work is now done. And I am working on the final issue and I think that will be done in a few days. Yippie!

The question I have is about a part of me that I can only refer to as the Silent One. I have always felt it... not a personality like the other alters. It is kinda like robot mode. But it is still not me and the other alters say it is not them either. I am always on the outside watching myself from a distance when the Silent One is out.

Silent One I now believe might have been the part of me that participated in the things the rest of me could not do. It is a very cold feeling. And it never ever has said a single word or even whispered a thought. There is no love or hate there at all. There is no anger and no fear.

Do you guys have any idea if this is an alter or not?
How do you communicate with it? Or do you?
How do you trust yourself to not have it come out and harm you?
All advice is greatly appriciated!

[WePow]

Thank you all. I posted my last abuse info in abuse forum but it is very graphic. That is the part the Silent One has most energy about. It is just so odd. No communication in any way. Just observation and action.

[Hunny]

(((((WePow)))))

I am here for you and will read the other post when I am able to.

In the meantime, know there is a contingent of people here for you.

Hunny

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[anderson]

(((((WEPOW))))
Just know that you are not alone. We are here for you listen to you and all with in . Safe hugs from all within me to all within you.

[WePow]

((((((( anderson ))))))) thank you tons. This is so hard at times. My T suggested for my anger that I do auto handwriting and of course the writing changed and someone came out that did not answer a name. I asked why it was so mad but it just said threats. Oh well. Now I am not sure. But still fighting!

[Hunny]

WePow,

Thank you for posting. I don't know if it helps but because of the lack of language, in some of my parts I have only been able to draw them, even drawing their memories, not precisely but thankfully. It actually is very heart wrenching and I don't even want to put the images down on the paper but how will they get their point across if I don't let them.

I am so glad that you were able to auto write and that you can see the differences for yourself. I have different writing too.

But the drawings for me were the revelation. I would say oh that is so and so in the drawing. And when I finally came to see the various aspects of neglect and abuse, it wasn't that other person in the drawing it was me. At the time those things happened it had been too painful to see it as me. The extreme traumas were not for the mild of heart but were only fathomable as someone else, a different identity. I have to breathe here. Painful traumas required I make new identities in order to live.

I send you safe hugs and special thoughts your way, WePow.


Hunny

[WePow]

((((((( Hunny ))))))))) Thank you. I will try to do that. I did work last night and wow - found yet more hidden memories but I think I understand things a ton better now. Just such hard work to do this. It stinks. Hugs!!!

[anderson]

Safe Hugs Wepow, and we agree it does suck trying to find ways for those within to be able to communcate and still function.
Know that we be here sitting and leaning on those here as we to find a way just to be.

[krazy_phoenix]

((((((((((WePow)))))))))))))
Thank you so much for sharing. I don't have anything to offer, just wanted you to know that I'm listening.
Good luck with Silent One.
kp

[WePow]

Thank you for the support. I went to see T yesterday. Silent One actually started to communicate with me a little and she was just barely whipering. Then in session she was able to whisper more and then finally she opened up enough in tears. It was a very rough emotionally draining session. T told me he had never seen me express that much raw grief. Uggg. It was hard. But I think it helped that deepest part of me get heard for once.

[Hunny]

WePow,

We too thank Silent One for whispering and trusting you and your therapist. Take some nice time to be gentle and strengthen yourself. Here is hoping she sees how wonderful you are!

Hunny

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Wepow))))

Thank you for sharing and we are sorry you are going through so much right now. But we are so glad that Silent one was able to let some out. You are and have been working so hard and we want you to know that we are so proud of you and all within for the work and sharing you have done.

Sometimes it is so hard to even put into words the things we feel. When the tears come that hurt so bad yet there seems to be no words yet to describe what is taking place and maybe we do not even really know. It feels as though time stops yet it goes on around us and we feel caught up and lost in it all.

Then when we least expect it and when it is time we start to get it and understand. This silent one has something to say and in time she will allow you in. Be patient with yourself. I am so glad that she was able to share in with t and you. Your willingness to accept her and feel what it is gives her the ability to know she is being heard and cared about.

Thank you for sharing. Do not know if this makes any sense but we do know what we are trying to say. You are doing a great job and we just want you to know that. Take care of you and silent and know that we are here for you and listening. We care. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps