[violetsareblue]

there shouldn't be a thing such as a mirror. really. a person's face shouldn't be lookked at. they're frightening and too revealing. too personal. i know you can look at other people and see their faces but i don't want anyone to see mine.
it's not mine. this body. the face i see in the mirror. i hate it. it's not me.

i'm scared.

i'm sorry if this isn't the right place to post something like this. i didn't know where else to do it.

Petal & Garnet

[reg12]

I think its ok that you posted here. It is always better to post anywhere then not post at all. We all get scared at times. Mirrors can be very hard for some people. Maybe we can help if you want to share again. Please feel free anytime you need to. Take care.

Originally Posted by violetsareblue

there shouldn't be a thing such as a mirror. really. a person's face shouldn't be lookked at. they're frightening and too revealing. too personal. i know you can look at other people and see their faces but i don't want anyone to see mine.
it's not mine. this body. the face i see in the mirror. i hate it. it's not me.

i'm scared.

i'm sorry if this isn't the right place to post something like this. i didn't know where else to do it.

Petal & Garnet

[violetsareblue]

I stared and I couldn't tell if I was in or out. Looking in or peering out.
I don't know if the "host" will remember this. She might be faced with a mirror too. I don't know.
The girl in the mirror looked so real and pretty and perfect, but I couldn't touch her and she couldn't see or hear me. Sad.

My head really really hurts..


Petal

[Eriksplus]

In our case, we can choose weather or not can see the core our ourselves in the mirrior; needless to say, in the case of everyone named Erik, no matter who we choose, we're doomed. A younger body of the oppisite sex, or a horribly...ugly face. Not much of a choice.... -_-

(Webber)Erik

[reg12]

Hello Pedal,
You are definately in the right place with your posts. Thanks so much for writing back. Mirrors can be very scary places, but they can also help use to see way inside ourselves as you did. They can also show us ones ones trapped inside. Maybe you will be able to talk to her someday and get to know her.
The pain may be from someone that doesn't want you to look that deep. They may be afraid and are trying to protect.

[reg12]

Sorry Petal for the mispell.

[violetsareblue]

Originally Posted by violetsareblue

I don't know if the "host" will remember this. She might be faced with a mirror too. I don't know.

Yeah, Petal, I guess I *was* "faced with a mirror", as you guys seem to put it. That is, lost time.
I didn't really remember them writing here until this morning.
I personally don't have a lot of problems with mirrors. Sometimes I even look in intentionally out of curiosity, to see if my appearance changed a little.
And reg12, don't worry about the misspelling. Thank you for talking to her and supporting her. You to, Eriksplus

[reg12]

That is ok Violet. We do not mind talking to you or the others. Yes sometimes they do those things and forget to let you know. LOL. We understand how it is. She was seeing the innocent child within when she looked in the mirror. Can you talk with them and explain?

[violetsareblue]

Originally Posted by reg12

That is ok Violet. We do not mind talking to you or the others. Yes sometimes they do those things and forget to let you know. LOL. We understand how it is. She was seeing the innocent child within when she looked in the mirror. Can you talk with them and explain?

Explain about what she saw in the mirror?
I don't know..my ability to communicate with the inside has dropped a lot since the beginning of July. I think I'm being isolated on purpose. But I don't think I can talk to them...I'm not even sure where they are or where they came from or what triggered them out..

[reg12]

Well normally the alters are protectors. They are there to help out with traumatic events. The one in the mirror was the innocent one that they wanted to protect.
They can get defensive and think they are doing good by cutting you out. I didn't know if you could communicate or not. They can hear you and they do communicate, but maybe not with words.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Petal)))) ((((violet))))

Thank you both for sharing. Sometimes we do not know when others step out and that is okay. They stepped out for a reason and I am glad that they felt they could post and ask questions. It is important for them as well as you violet to be heard. In time they and you will get aquainted and come to know one another. But it takes time.

I think you both did a wonderful job talking and explaining. I think reg had a point as they were trying to protect the innocent one. That is a good thing as they are doing what they know. In time as you move forward and are ready you will talk with them. But that is as you are ready.

So many times within us others come forth and I have no idea either. It has taken time but we are beginning to have much more co-consciousness with one another which makes it so we do not feel so lost and out of touch with what is going on. But that has taken time as we have worked and been able to open up.

We do understand lost time and how it can really cause us to almost stop in our tracks at times. As you move forward and get to know your system and are able to connect more you will find that time will not always be lost. But be patient with yourself as you are doing just what you need to be doing at this time.

Healing is a process and one that takes time to get to where we are trying to get. If we push too hard and too quickly we may cause more trauma and confusion. I thank you for posting and reaching out. Please know that we are here for you and we care. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

[violetsareblue]

thank you reg12 and thank you darkpurplesecrets

With the new people i've been meeting the past 2 months it just seems like a lot of them get triggered and I learn about their existance and then they disappear and I can't talk to them.
I think I know what triggered them though, at least Petal. That's a start..