[justdontknow]

I don't know if I need to put a trigger sign on this post or not so I did anyway. I am just letting all my friends at the DD forum know that I have not been in a real good place the past few weeks and I have been struggling. Lots of old memories have been shared with me by some of the others and they have been very mentally draining and scary for me. LOTS of old CSA issues coming up and it has been extremely tough for me to stay present and in control. I have been dissociating pretty regularly and that has not happened for many months but now it is happening a lot. That is why I have not been around. I don't know if anyone else has been around much either. One thing about me is that I retreat into myself when I feel this way and I have a hard time talking with other people. I am just trying to explain my silence. If you guys could send me some positive thoughts and energy or hugs, it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

Cris

[anderson]

((((justdontknow))))
memiors are hard to deal with
just know that we be here for you to
we be going through so much recall
since we got a T that hears us we be staying low unless one of us needs to release stuff
so please know we be here for those within you as much as posible from all of those within us.

[michelle421]

((((cris))))

i care about you and i have been wondering how you have been doing. thank you for letting us know. i will send you some extra caring, healing energy from now on.

i hope you can do whatever you need to take care as best you can. i believe in you. you are strong and you can get through this! take your time. we'll be here for you even when you have been away.

(((((((((((((((lots of hugs for all in the hotel!!!))))))))))))))

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((justdontknow))))

Thank you for posting and letting us know how you are doing. I am sorry things are so hard right now. But I do understand and know how those very thoughts can fill you and take your breath away before you even know it. I am so glad that you could reach out and ask for the support you need.

Sometimes it is during these rough times that we grow if we are able to listen to what those within have to say and then allow ourselves to work together with those within. What they did for us is stand in for us when we were unable to stand and they did a great job to keep us going when it seemed that we could not or would not be able to go another step.

For us, I trust my system to only give me what they know I can handle and when I cannot take anymore they also know that. Accepting those memories is not easy especially when getting them for the first time. Sometimes when memories come we want to run and hide from it all. It is so hard to face and I validate how you are feeling.

I hope you will continue to post as you can and know that we are here for you. We care and we are listening. If you need anything please feel free to pm me if you need to talk or just want to. Keep reaching. Love you. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

[Miracle1986]

(((cris and all)))
We are here for you

[fadedspirit]

((((just))))
we send caring thoughts and hugs.

[Eriksplus]

Cris and all

We're sorry you're in a hard place right now. Please let us know if there is anything else we can do for you.

@~~~%~~~

(Webber)Erik & all

[blackrainbow]

safe hugs for you
im sorry you are having such a hard
time hope you all feel better soon
sending good thoughts and safe hugs
dinah

[Lillyleaf]

((hugs))
no matter wether you are having problems or are fine we are always sending you positive messeges and saying that we are here 100% for you!
Scarlet

[justdontknow]

Thank you everyone for your support. It means a lot to me and everyone here.

Cris

[willowtrees10]

Chris
I am sorry you are going through this right now. It is mentally draining to have all of the memories thrown at you. Take care of you. Do what you have to do to cope in a healthy way with this. Hope things get better soon for you.

Originally Posted by justdontknow

I don't know if I need to put a trigger sign on this post or not so I did anyway. I am just letting all my friends at the DD forum know that I have not been in a real good place the past few weeks and I have been struggling. Lots of old memories have been shared with me by some of the others and they have been very mentally draining and scary for me. LOTS of old CSA issues coming up and it has been extremely tough for me to stay present and in control. I have been dissociating pretty regularly and that has not happened for many months but now it is happening a lot. That is why I have not been around. I don't know if anyone else has been around much either. One thing about me is that I retreat into myself when I feel this way and I have a hard time talking with other people. I am just trying to explain my silence. If you guys could send me some positive thoughts and energy or hugs, it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

Cris

[Crew]

((((((((((Justdon'tknow))))))))))

I am sorry you haven't been feeling well. Hey about putting the trigger icon up.... the way we see it better SAFE then sorry you know?

Just keep eating and keeping fluids down and writing and maybe drawing out that memory or memmories. The way we kinda see it, is if were still having memmories after we thought we finished the memory only means to us that there is still some memory left in there we have to clean out and finish. What ever you need to do;do unless it is considered NOT SAFE.

and remember Take care, Crew

[Gr3tta]

We're not having a great time right now having hard time to say what we mena but want to say we are hoping for you to feel better very soon sending you many positive energy and happy thoughts that we can think of and lots safe 's for Cris and all hotel

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((((((cris))))))))

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((cris))))

Hoping things are going better for you now