Why? Who? When?

So, my T asked me if I knew when all of my alters came to be. I don't really know totally.
I think the teen came about when I got sent to Juvenile Hall for hitting someone and it scared me so badly I never did it again.
One of the littles came out when I was 8 or so, when some of my sexual abuse started. I remember the dissociation very very well from that time frame.
The elder, I'm not too sure when she came. The other little I don't know, either.
Do you know when yours came into your life? Do you know then all? Do you know why they are here?

No but I want to know I want to be in control and not have it happen at all

We know when some of us came about and why, based on what they say. But there's still a lot of memories we don't have, still a lot of blanks in the childhood.
*hug* With you on this journey to try and find out the truth

I'm lucky enough tobe in control. They don't come out unless I approve. I agree, I wish it didn't have it happen at all.

That's my thing, there are so many blanks in my childhood, so many things I worry and wonder about. It sucks because I can't just ask them and have them tell me the answer. *sigh*.
Thanks!

(((onlymedid)))
We use to want that info still do when we think that it will stop others from using our DID againts us. but in truth even being partial intergrated we do not have a concret calander of events. Our T keeps asking us for names and ages, finely one of the alters just told her we do not have names, we are known for the trauma that made us. There are a few of us that do have names but the majority of us were not allowed to have names and it was not safe for us to remember about each other. The inner walls are a double edge sword. they keep us from the trauma and the good times. It is not always so bad just when we are reminded how different we are from those around us.

That's interesting. Yeah, I agree that the inner walls are a double edged sword. I am afraid of what might come out, but at the same time, I think it might answer some questions. Sheesh....do I really want to know or should I stay in the dark, so to speak? I just don't know.
Thanks for your experience. It helps meto see where I am at in the process, too.

So, we are going to start a timeline tomorrow. I asked her how that is going to work when there is so much I don't remember.
She said that we can get some pieces and as time goes on, we may be able to fill some other parts in. We are just going to start with as much info as I have and go from there.

Hello onlymedid,

I know meg was there after I'd been raped at 3yrs old by 3 men, and then at the doctors surgery where I was "examined" I just went away, but meg wasn't happy she didn't want the examination; while I was quiet she was screaming "NO no no more!"

Rhiannon

(((onlymedid))) and ((((Rhiannonsmoon))))
Just fill in the space that you feel comfortable feeling.
the hardest thing for us to learn was to allow things to come to the surface as it was ready to come forth.
We think of it like an onion, We have many layers and the the closer the core the more we cry. The same way you would if peeling a very stong onion.
Go softly and gently on this path and know that we are thinking of you to as we are peeling our own onion of life.

Most of my problems started back when I was 13 and my mom was sleeping with my dad's brother behind his back. I got torn between the both of my parents and things got pretty ugly.

That is sad. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

Thank you! I didn't think of it like an onion, but I can see what you mean. I am afraid of those really strong onions, but with my support, I can keep the tears from coming on too strong. lol

I can see how that would get ugly and why you would have problems.