[Miracle1986]

Ever since I became aware of my others, we have been co-conscious the vast majority of the time -
except when we are extremely stressed out or upset.

Tonight I found out that my best friend (who is DID as well) is not co anymore.
According to her, she hasn't able to feel them in the longest time.
I don't know why, but for some strange reason, hearing that made me have an overwhelming feeling of guilt.
I guess because I know how hard it can be not to be co.

I know it's not my fault that she can't feel her others (we both think it is due to the medications she is on),
and I know I shouldn't feel guilty, but I can't help it and I don't know how to stop these feelings.

[(JD)]

What a good friend you are. I agree that any guilt you're experiencing is probably unfounded. And, yes, many times medication can cause what she's experiencing. I hope she's not been misdiagnosed and is being medicated for that, rather than being understood at DID. Some doctors who don't "believe in" DID will medicate to "prove" it because the medication removes/curbs/silences (who really knows?) the others.

But, I'm more concerned about you. I wonder why you feel at fault? Do you sense that maybe a conversation you had could have triggered her response? Of course, I stand by your knowledge that it isn't your doing. Even if you had talked, this would have been her system's response, and not your doing.

Now tell yourself you're doing good ... and that your friend will get through this too.

[Nupoet64]

((((Miracle))))))...here for you...clad you are venting. I agree that the guilt is not yours toi carry, but that doesn't make it go away. The quilt is probably based in some shame stuff from earlier adn just overflows to other parts of life...this is a good T issue. But for now, just know that your friend is blessed to have you and your concern for her is a loving thing. GL and keep yourself very safe.