Not doing good.

feeling like I should leave. So often when I come here I am leaving feeling worse. But leaving anywhere is so hard for me. I just feel I should not be here. In fact, I feel I shouldnot be anywhere, but maybe that is just cos it is late here and I am tired and stuff. It's not htat I don't care - it is more like I care too much.

Can you get some rest soon?

Caroline, this place would be losing something very special if we lost you. I think its becasue of how you are feeling at the moment. But you gotta beleive that the people here care about you and want nothing but the best for you. And all we can offer is a good ear and the best advice we can give. You help so many people and we want to help you.

All the girls

We do care. And we hope for you the very best.

Sometimes when I am very tired, everything seems to be too much. I care too much and it can feel exhausting. Usually what I then need to do is step back, get some rest and distraction time, and regain some perspective.

i want to help others here but i feel like i am not good enough and can't do enough and whatever I do or say seems to be wrong. I feel as close to angry as I can but I don't know how to express how I feel.

rest is probably a good idea tho I slept the clock round last night so you would think I had had enough rest. Maybe not. It scares me all that needs doing and I start feeling like I would ahve to be superwoman to do it all and I can't. I really want to crawl into a corner right now and cry and tell everyone I just can't do what you want me to, I just can't do it any more. To be off work, to be at home, to have other people look after me, that is so much what I long for but it ain't gonna happen. Maybe I am on my way to meltdown I just don't know any more but I amtyping and huge speed and not really sure that what I am typing makes any sense any more maybe it is just meltdown time.

Oh honey........sending you great big hugs! Sounds like you are in overwhelm. What helps when you get overwelmed?

I don't know what helps. I guess valium, bed, sleeping tablet, alcohol. Not all at once tho. I am overwhelmed, overtired, probably over reacting too.Just reached the point of not enough support irl and too much to do irl.

Can you write down a list of what you need to eventually do rl, that way you can kinda get it out of your thoughts for the moment. Might help you relax some.

Anything fun and relaxing you can do? A movie, TV show, book, crafts?

I'm so wound up I am like a coiled spring. There are things I could do and the computer is usually one of them just not now. A list is a good idea, tho the things I ahve to do are school preparation and marking. I made alist today and did some of it. I so want it to be the half term break. ty for caring.

I know that feeling, of being all wound up, can be uncomfortable.

Very cool that you made a list and have done some!

{{{{{Caroline}}}}}

Caroline,

You need some rest and a break. Do whatever you need to take care of yourself then come right back here to us.

We all care about you.

Petunia

((((((((((((((((((((Caroline)))))))))))))))))))))) hope you feel better soon.

(((((((((((((((((Caroline)))))))))))))))))))

ty Sarah - and for your PM support last night. I'll stick around - just maybe not as much, or as visibly; I don't know right now.

C

ty Gem. Thanks for being here and thanks for caring.

ty Petunia. That's good advice. I'll take it.

I'm sticking around; I've decided that.

C

thanks, wanto.

thanks, fuzzy.

((((((((((((((((caroline)))))))))))))))

i'm here and thinking about you. please take good care of you. you are so important to us here. i hate the thought of you leaving.


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