Sad Fest

That's OK. YOu don't have to promise me anything. Just know that all of us here want the best for you.

Caroline

please stay tammy. you a special girl. We love you.

((((((((((((((((((Tamzin))))))))))))))))))))

from all the girls

(((((((((((((Tamzin))))))))))))))

I miss my brothers.

{{{{{Petunia}}}}}}

I know you do. I'm so sorry.

(((((((((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))))))) I know you do honey. I bet they miss you as much.

All the girls

(((((((((((Petunia)))))))))))

It hurts, I know, and I am sorry for your hurt.

Caroline

Stupid jerks. I'm mad at them too.

They knew they could die but they kept at it and kept at it. I begged them to stop. I saved them as many times as I could but they went and died anyway. All that and they up and died ANYWAY.

((((((((((Petunia))))))))))

Petunia, you have done all that you could. I dont think they wanted to die, i think they were caught up in something very different that they couldnt get away from. But if they had known what you know now (and i mean really know) you would still have them and they would still have you.

Atg

and i mean really know

They really knew. They were heroin addicts for more than twenty years. One was clean for eight years right before he died.

Petunia, you will of course know the situation better than me. What I mean is that we all feel invincible. Sort of like we all know to run out on a road could mean being hit by a car, but we never really know that that car could really hit us. So, we take chances. We think it wont happen to us. We think we are different because we never really know our own mortality or just how fragile that it. If your brothers had know they would die Im sure they would have stopped but they may have been like the rest of us and felt that it would never really happen to them. In the end it doesnt really mater cos you are left with the pain of it all and that is the real tragety here. You are left suffering and missing two of the most important people in your life and I want to say that I hear you petunia. I really do and I wish there was a way to take it all away. Cos if i could I would.

Audrey

{{{{{ allthegirls }}}}}

{{{{{ Gem }}}}}

{{{{{ Caroline }}}}}

(((((((((((((((((((((((((PETUNIA))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((((((((petunias brothers)))))))))))))))))))))))

{{{Petunia}}}}

Big Fat Hugs and Slobbery kisses from your god-puppies.

((((((((((((((((((((petunia))))))))))))))))))))

it's okay to miss them and to be mad at them. you have a right to how you feel. if you ever need to talk, i'm right here.


shadow

(((((((((((((((((((((((Petunia))))))))))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((Petunia))))))))))


I'll strum my geetar and hum a lil' Sicky Sarah Serenade for us all.

I'm just gonna stay here until I feel better. Anyone can visit if you want too. If I don't make you sad too.

You dont make me sad at all.

I'll stay here with you. I'm feelin kind of sad too. Its ok to be sad here.

Okay.

I'll stay here with you if you will have me.
I'm sad already you won't make me sad.

((((((Petunia))))))

Caroline

Okay.

Bring your chocolates and Gem can bring her hot chocolate and Wisewoman can bring her warm afghan from the dryer.

Sarah can bring her flashlights and allthegirls can bring some mac and cheese and the constellation will just bring themselves cuz we all need stars.

Anyone else who wants to be sad with us can come. But we can't stay long. Life does goes on. Even without the dead people.

I have plenty of flashlights, some have interchangeable color lenses. For Sad Land, the default color is blue. Anyone can change theirs anytime they like.

I'm sad for everyone who is sad, sad for me too cause I'm achy and feel horrible. I might accidentally start laughing though if anyone does anything funny, so you all better not. Be funny.

I brought sad music too. And I propose a sigh & groan-a-thon. We get to make sad sounds along with crying.

Hope you feel better Sarah.